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referencing the technical aspects of , and to the taijitu's illustration of yin-yang fitting together,
does it work to treat "yin" and "yang" as "unknown" and "known"?
does it work to treat the yin dot in the center of yang (as per the taijitu) as the footprint of the observer, and the yang dot in the center of yin as the footprint of the operator?
does it work to treat the taijitu and the 2x2 three-body consciousness frame as alternate projections of each other? what happens when the containment/operator/observer dynamic is held alongside the ten thousand things?
theory: you go into almost hypnosis around [2] because a personality-circuit completes within you when you're in live interaction. when that happens, [1]-without-[2] learns that its purpose is fulfilled by getting that circuit reconnected.
complication: [2] is his own person with his own set of wiring
goal: to complete that circuit within yourself, so that you can engage with the world on your own terms
it's not that there's a [2]-shaped part of you that's inactive/unconscious/unwired
it's that there's an as-yet-unidentified gap in your aliveness, which can't be lit up until you derive the shape correctly (see: ), and it's that [2]'s aliveness when magnetically attached to yours happens to fit that gap
however: [2]'s shape incorporates lots of factors that have nothing to do with you (see: ). it's not that [2] is who you need, it's that your experience of [2] completes a latent circuit within you. it's like you see him overlaid over you, and in that image all the gaps are filled. think about the additive layer modes in photoshop (and see: ).
the puzzle is to successfully infer the outlines of that latent part of you, and to then light it up with awareness. the feedback loop is (1) identifying a shape, and then (2) asking of the space within that shape, "hello? are you there?" (see: )
the challenge is to find awareness around the electricity of your connection with [2] - to use your experience with [2] as data, while loving [2] as distinct from your experience of him. use the data, resolve the shape of a gap within you, turn that shape into a portal, and bring the next piece of yourself through.
this feels like... the process of structural recognition? is this also how one resolves a living interface to the operator?
exhibit:
the oedipus complex is solved by co-existing with your gay mirror-self and your two living mirror-parents, and introducing them to your wife (?), and the lot of you existing together, as family