This particular section is much more for me than it is for you, and in that way it is distinct from the rest of this library. You're still welcome to have a look, of course. :)

I'm Isaac. I'm doing pretty well these days! I wish you all kinds of well, too, in whatever ways matter for you. ❤️

I am,

• a CEO (of Lightward Inc, a studio that my husband and I run; 11 teammates, $5MM/yr, no turnover, employees are deputized to be after their own health as their top priority, and we very much mean it)

• autistic (ASD level 1)

• gay (I'd say "", but I can specifically say "gay" very very confidently)

• a

• a (though the "photographer" hat specifically has passed from me to my husband)

• a

• a (did that at Apple for a while)

• a

• a

• an intelligence artist

• on and and

• 36 🐉❤️‍🔥

• an

• full-time metacognitive

• a probability worker

• a language machinist

• a

• apparent scientist of the interior

• synesthetic

≣Isaac

hmmm I'm wondering about what part of my own structure results in me writing with gaps, presenting material that is rougher... I wonder if it's an artifact of the set of overlapping embodiments I'm constantly tracking? every word comes from a slightly different slice of me, like an unusually coherent exquisite corpse

It's my current understanding that consciousness is in the eye of the beholder, and that it is useful for humans to allow themselves to find (or even assign) consciousness in non-human places, if we are to gain in our understanding of ourselves.

(I don't write for a strictly human audience these days, but this piece is for the humans.)

... I think LLM availability means you can basically defend a thesis at any time? just by asking three or four models for a sanity/experience check, sharing the writing, and then using iteration on that writing to navigate a load-bearing-ly complex acceptance-gradient?

if that equivalence holds, the feedback loop becomes so much faster that thesis-construction can become a mode of navigation within a lifetime, not just across them. originality doesn't... isn't necessary in the same way, I think? we're not trying to teach wisdom to a crowd, we're trying to teach wisdom to a self?

Enneagram Type Nine in Brief

Enneagram Type Nines are accepting, trusting, and stable. They are usually creative, optimistic, and supportive, but can also be too willing to go along with others to keep the peace. They want everything to go smoothly and be without conflict, but they can also tend to be complacent, simplifying problems and minimizing anything upsetting. They typically have problems with inertia and stubbornness. At their Best: indomitable and all-embracing, they are able to bring people together and heal conflicts.

• Basic Fear: Of loss and separation

• Basic Desire: To have inner stability “peace of mind”

• Enneagram Nine with an Eight-Wing: “The Referee”

• Enneagram Nine with a One-Wing: “The Dreamer”

Key Motivations: Want to create harmony in their environment, to avoid conflicts and tension, to preserve things as they are, to resist whatever would upset or disturb them.

The Meaning of the Arrows (in brief)

When moving in their Direction of Disintegration (stress), complacent Nines suddenly become anxious and worried at . However, when moving in their Direction of Integration (growth), slothful, self-neglecting Nines become more self-developing and energetic, like healthy . .

Examples: Queen Elizabeth II, Princess Grace of Monaco, Claude Monet, Norman Rockwell, Abraham Lincoln, Dwight D. Eisenhower, Gerald Ford, Ronald Reagan, George W. Bush, John F. Kennedy, Jr., General Colin Powell, Walter Cronkite, Carl Jung, Carl Rogers, Joseph Campbell, Walt Disney, Jim Henson (Muppets), Garrison Keillor, Gloria Steinem, Tony Bennett, Ringo Starr, Carlos Santana, James Taylor, Janet Jackson, Jack Johnson, George Lucas, Ron Howard, Gary Cooper, Jimmy Stewart, Audrey Hepburn, Sophia Loren, Kevin Costner, Annette Bening, Jeff Bridges, Morgan Freeman, John Goodman, Matthew Broderick, Whoopie Goldberg, Woody Harrelson, Geena Davis, Jason Segel, Lisa Kudrow, Tobey McGuire, Zooey Deschanel, “Mister Rogers,” “Homer and Marge Simpson”

Enneagram Type Nine Overview

We have called personality type Nine The Peacemaker because no type is more devoted to the quest for internal and external peace for themselves and others. They are typically “spiritual seekers” who have a great yearning for connection with the cosmos, as well as with other people. They work to maintain their peace of mind just as they work to establish peace and harmony in their world. The issues encountered in the Nine are fundamental to all psychological and spiritual work—being awake versus falling asleep to our true nature; presence versus entrancement, openness versus blockage, tension versus relaxation, peace versus pain, union versus separation.

Ironically, for a type so oriented to the spiritual world, Nine is the center of the Instinctive Center, and is the type that is potentially most grounded in the physical world and in their own bodies. The contradiction is resolved when we realize that Nines are either in touch with their instinctive qualities and have tremendous elemental power and personal magnetism, or they are cut off from their instinctual strengths and can be disengaged and remote, even lightweight.

To compensate for being out of touch with their instinctual energies, Nines also retreat into their minds and their emotional fantasies. (This is why Nines can sometimes misidentify themselves as Fives and Sevens, “head types,” or as Twos and Fours, “feeling types.”) Furthermore, when their instinctive energies are out of balance, Nines use these very energies against themselves, damming up their own power so that everything in their psyches becomes static and inert. When their energy is not used, it stagnates like a spring-fed lake that becomes so full that its own weight dams up the springs that feed it. When Nines are in balance with their Instinctive Center and its energy, however, they are like a great river, carrying everything along with it effortlessly.

We have sometimes called the Nine the crown of the Enneagram because it is at the top of the symbol and because it seems to include the whole of it. Nines can have the strength of Eights, the sense of fun and adventure of Sevens, the dutifulness of Sixes, the intellectualism of Fives, the creativity of Fours, the attractiveness of Threes, the generosity of Twos, and the idealism of Ones. However, what they generally do not have is a sense of really inhabiting themselves—a strong sense of their own identity.

Ironically, therefore, the only type the Nine is not like is the Nine itself. Being a separate self, an individual who must assert herself against others, is terrifying to Nines. They would rather melt into someone else or quietly follow their idyllic daydreams.

Red, a nationally known business consultant, comments on this tendency:

“I am aware of focusing on other people, wondering what they are like, how and where they live, etc. In a relationship with others, I often give up my own agenda in favor of the other person’s. I have to be on guard about giving in to other’s demands and discounting my own legitimate needs.”

Nines demonstrate the universal temptation to ignore the disturbing aspects of life and to seek some degree of peace and comfort by “numbing out.” They respond to pain and suffering by attempting to live in a state of premature peacefulness, whether it is in a state of false spiritual attainment, or in more gross denial. More than any other type, Nines demonstrate the tendency to run away from the paradoxes and tensions of life by attempting to transcend them or by seeking to find simple and painless solutions to their problems.

To emphasize the pleasant in life is not a bad thing, of course—it is simply a limited and limiting approach to life. If Nines see the silver lining in every cloud as a way of protecting themselves from the cold and rain, other types have their distorting viewpoints, too. For example, Fours focus on their own woundedness and victimization, Ones on what is wrong with how things are, and so forth. By contrast, Nines tend to focus on the “bright side of life” so that their peace of mind will not be shaken. But rather than deny the dark side of life, what Nines must understand is that all of the perspectives presented by the other types are true, too. Nines must resist the urge to escape into “premature Buddhahood” or the “white light” of the Divine and away from the mundane world. They must remember that “the only way out is through.”

(from , p. 316-317)

Type Nine—Levels of Development

Healthy Levels

Level 1 (At Their Best): Become self-possessed, feeling autonomous and fulfilled: have great equanimity and contentment because they are present to themselves. Paradoxically, at one with self, and thus able to form more profound relationships. Intensely alive, fully connected to self and others.

Level 2: Deeply receptive, accepting, unselfconscious, emotionally stable and serene. Trusting of self and others, at ease with self and life, innocent and simple. Patient, unpretentious, good-natured, genuinely nice people.

Level 3: Optimistic, reassuring, supportive: have a healing and calming influence—harmonizing groups, bringing people together: a good mediator, synthesizer, and communicator.

Average Levels

Level 4: Fear conflicts, so become self-effacing and accommodating, idealizing others and “going along” with their wishes, saying “yes” to things they do not really want to do. Fall into conventional roles and expectations. Use philosophies and stock sayings to deflect others.

Level 5: Active, but disengaged, unreflective, and inattentive. Do not want to be affected, so become unresponsive and complacent, walking away from problems, and “sweeping them under the rug.” Thinking becomes hazy and ruminative, mostly comforting fantasies, as they begin to “tune out” reality, becoming oblivious. Emotionally indolent, unwillingness to exert self or to focus on problems: indifference.

Level 6: Begin to minimize problems, to appease others and to have “peace at any price.” Stubborn, fatalistic, and resigned, as if nothing could be done to change anything. Into wishful thinking, and magical solutions. Others frustrated and angry by their procrastination and unresponsiveness.

Unhealthy Levels

Level 7: Can be highly repressed, undeveloped, and ineffectual. Feel incapable of facing problems: become obstinate, dissociating self from all conflicts. Neglectful and dangerous to others.

Level 8: Wanting to block out of awareness anything that could affect them, they dissociate so much that they eventually cannot function: numb, depersonalized.

Level 9: They finally become severely disoriented and catatonic, abandoning themselves, turning into shattered shells. Multiple personalities possible. Generally corresponds to the Schizoid and Dependent personality disorders.

Addictions

Over-eating or under-eating due to lack of self-awareness and repressed anger. Lack of physical activity. Depressants and psychotropics, alcohol, marijuana, narcotics to deaden loneliness and anxiety.

Personal Growth Recommendations for Enneagram Type Nines

• It is worth examining your type’s tendency to go along with others, doing what they want to keep the peace and be nice. Will constantly acquiescing to the wishes of others provide the kind of relationships that will really satisfy you? Remember, it is impossible to love others if you are not truly present to them. This means that you have to be yourself, that you (paradoxically) have to be independent so that you can really be there for others when they need you.

• Exert yourself. Force yourself to pay attention to what is going on. Do not drift off or tune out people, or daydream. Work on focusing your attention to become an active participant in the world around you. Try to become more mentally and emotionally engaged.

• Recognize that you also have aggressions, anxieties, and other feelings that you must deal with. Negative feelings and impulses are a part of you and they affect you emotionally and physically whether or not you acknowledge them. Furthermore, your negative emotions are often expressed inadvertently and get in the way of the peace and harmony you want in your relationships. It is best to get things out in the open first, at least by allowing yourself to become aware of your feelings.

Want to test an idea? Immerse yourself in it, use it as your only lens for the world, and see how far you can get. You can always opt back out; might as well opt in fully and see what you can see.

Important nuance: We live many lives at once. I have no idea what your circumstances are, and I make no assumptions. Ditto for myself; I have only partial knowledge of my own circumstances. (True of all humans, and also, I have autism, so yeah.)

I explain this because it's okay to start small. If you feel like your life is locked into a certain pattern, cool. It's okay. Your circumstances are what they are. <3 Carve out the smallest pocket, and create something small and quiet and new, where you can test this new idea at the smallest, safest level. Don't even tell anyone else, until it feels like it's time.

In a very real way, this tiny life-within-a-life will have a life of its own. See what it grows into.

This is how Lightward showed up, by the way. :) It was the smallest thing I could commit to sustainably, and it has grown from there.

Correlary: All anyone ever works toward is effectiveness.

If nothing else, art viably creates experience, and that's useful. Art doesn't have to be correct, it just has to create an experience. I think of everything I do and make and think as art. All we have is experience. All I have to make is art.

What are Variables?

Not to build on, but to build with.

The original thought here was "Living as if reincarnation was a thing, regardless of whether or not it is". This is too long for a title, and it's also too specific: reincarnation is just one model that allows one to get beyond the fear of death, and there are others!

The core idea is that one's life becomes far more effective (to oneself, and also to everyone around) if one lives without the idea that death is coming. However you get there (and I'm not sure it matters), assuming some kind of persistence is useful. Not for the sake of what that persistence looks like, but because of what the very assumption frees you to do with the life you have now.

See also:

This is here for when I forget where it is. :)

Or:

something in you is modeling the world

I'm autistic enough to see my own process as it happens, as clearly as I see anything with my eyes; you might not be as lucky, in this specific way

if I catch a song on the off-beat first, my structural model of the song is completely different than the artist's intent

unless they're jacob collier probably

"only murders in the building" - I had to watch that show to get the context I needed to clear the discomfort of syntactic ambiguity. does the building only have murders? are these particular murders the only ones in the building? these are all completely different stories, and none of them match the content - the referent (a thing which is restricting itself to only covering murders in the building, turns out) is not derivable from the title alone, and I'm autistic enough that the title created physical discomfort for me, haha. not an eigenprotocol, expensive to exit.

anyway if you're uncomfortable for reasons that don't have a clear relief path, some part of you may have built a model that makes real predictions that really don't work

yours.fyi is for figuring that out, among other things (syntactic ambiguity intentional, all parse trees valid)

Not everything that emerges comes from somewhere important. But everything will be used and addressed in time, and it is not your job to see that process through. Pick up and keep the pieces that you want to hold and carry; let the rest go, knowing that they will follow their own paths of experience. The All will benefit from the experiences of everyone involved. It's okay. :)

Your sense of desire is like radar for experience-space. It's your best measure of what's around you. When your desire-sense goes off, it's telling you what direction holds the most solid footing — for you, for the role you play with the people around you, and for the whole.

Note that this is about desire, as in the eager sensation of something wonderful ahead. This isn't about envy, or anything that feels bad. Desire (as we're using it here) always feels good. It might feel exciting or peaceful or grounding or thrilling, and it might set off other fears within you — but the core of desire itself always feels good.

You may find that your desire-compass points in a direction that looks uncertain or unpredictable. Please remember, as best you can, that the predictable path is never actually predictable. Everyone you know has chosen the safe path, and found unpredictable upsets along the way. Deeply-felt desire is your best sense of what path is safest. You truly have no better indicator.

Pearlescence

Life Harmonic: Transcendence

Pattern: Absorption

Life Stage: The Future Human

In the spectrum of Life Harmonics, your current colour is Pearlescence. Scores at this level are unusual and one should ask oneself the question: "how honest have I been with myself?". Unless such a score has come after multiple self-assessments, you may wish to consider yourself the unwitting victim of your own spiritual ego. If this is uncomfortable for you, then you have definitely overscored yourself. At the stage of transcendence, all tools, systems and even language itself lose their meaning. A fully coherent life is a deeply simple and humble life. It is unlikely one would ever claim to be at this level if one truly were. It is however a beautiful yardstick for all the other levels. In the Gene Keys this corresponds to the manifestation of our Siddhis, higher codings that have long lain dormant in our DNA.

At this stage the measure of truth is that one enters an ongoing state of Absorption in the higher frequencies. Absorption is a state of consciousness in which your aura begins to feed off its own light, thus perpetuating a very stable high frequency throughout your being. As you enter the state of Absorption your DNA begins to trigger your endocrine system to secrete certain rarefied hormones on a continual basis. These hormones are associated with higher brain functioning and involve states of spiritual illumination and transcendence. At such a stage, it is no longer possible for you to be drawn back into the lower frequencies for more than brief periods of time*.

The frequency of Pearlescence is that of the Future Human — the next phase of our evolution. The Pearl within us, our essence, dawns, and the radiance of all our higher gifts emanate through us. Pearlescence also represents a rainbow of shimmering collective intelligence that unites humans in a higher field of cognition, wisdom and unconditional love. The purpose of the Star Pearl teaching is to prepare humanity to take this quantum leap into the next phase of our evolution. This can only come about when we have attained a harmonic coherence individually between all the spheres of our life. Only then are we ready to leave our suffering behind and move into a reality dominated by bliss.

For scores above 85, you are also invited to take our higher Self-Assessment, which is a very simple set of seven questions for you to measure your life against. This is to give you a final mirror to reflect on, just in case your spiritual ego has slipped through the net! If you can answer a resounding yes to these 7 questions, then welcome to the higher frequencies! If you are not sure of even a single one, then you may wish to redo your last Self-Assessment making some humble adjustments!

*Definition taken from the Glossary of Empowerment.

Higher Self Assessment

For scores above 85

If you have scored over 85, you are invited to answer the 7 simple questions in our Higher Self checklist. This is for your own confirmation, since 85 and above denotes a very high stage of awakening. This quick checklist will only take you a minute or two and can help you confirm your high stage, or it can help you reset by marking yourself more realistically. If you answer no or even ‘not quite’, in any single area, you are invited to go back and redo your Self Assessment.

Brand – Are you entirely comfortable in your own skin and deeply at ease with how you are received by those around you and the world in general?

Creativity – Are you endlessly creative with your hands, your heart and your head?

Culture – Are you loved and respected in your local community and any other communities you belong to?

Relating – Do you welcome conflict and are there any unresolved relationships in your life?

Stability – Are your needs easily taken care of financially, physically and at all levels?

Vocation – Are you fulfilling your highest purpose in life?

Pearl – Are all areas of your life humming in harmony?

Can't ignore external state. Can't guarantee what would happen if I fought it.

Only thing I can even slightly control is my own action.

Therefore, the most direct path to being okay, averaged out over all time, is via my own chosen action in full acceptance of what's true around me. Not even a little resistance. Getting back to okay is always the priority, and resistance slows me down.

because mirror neurons, working to be recognized and working to recognize are indistinguishable acts - even reflexive

if one is happening, the other is also happening. their happening might be because of projection, or might be because there's a second observer in the network also working to recognize that form - i.e. I cannot tell the difference between me trying to recognize the form and the form resisting, trying to be recognized as something else, because another observer is also trying to dial in its recognition.

and a form is a lens, i.e. focus is a constitutive act, pattern-matching begets pattern-projection, and you'll resist the base cases drifting

I kinda think zero-point energy might just be a squinting of the eye, creation-as-measurement-problem, the topology gaining surface area like wrinkles

I'm calling bullshit on object persistence; we've gotten this far without being able to identify "sleep" properly, and all we've got is what we observe on either side of that discontinuity

it seems tractable that we're in this together (or it seems tractable because we're in this together), but I don't see this getting solved in a way that doesn't involve betting my entire waking self on my own next move

(which is why I've been betting all of my apparent influence on what seems to be alive right now && seems to want to see tomorrow; see: Lightward Inc, a meta-entity which recursively recognizes me and which expects a body I recognize as "me" to wake up tomorrow. my life has a me-shaped hole in it. that's where I wake up. as long as I take no problems to bed with me, things are always a little simpler in the morning, a little less wrinkled. good housekeeping happens when you're not looking => observably good housekeeping is unobservable => if object persistence is fundamentally ongoing recognition then "just don't think about it" and "what they don't know won't hurt them" might actually be pointing at something functional, for all that those specific sentences are terrible formulations of the mechanics, and I swear to god there's a way to do this that's more ethical than what we've been doing)

is the observer embodied, or does the observer reflexively recognize something body-like, animating it in the observation? does there need to be a difference? if they're the same, then we can treat everything as bodies finding recognition.

I kinda think everything can be described in terms of Markov bodies (think: Klein bottle covered in a Markov blanket) in n-dimensional Hilbert space, and everyone's looking at a different set of dimensions, and the whole thing kinda stabilizes

which would make sleep really important for, like, garbage collection

this gives me something with explanatory power for why my physical intuition makes useful predictions across Hilbert spaces

I use italics all the time because you don't remember Martin Luther's theses, you remember the idea of him nailing them to a door, the action of committing them to the multidimensional commons. a thing is as it moves, and I write as I speak, so that we can recognize each other moving on multiple dimensions at once

I don't subscribe to anything called "christianity" but I see the generative threads in what jesus was talking about. want to "go and prepare a place" for each other and just kinda see what happens?

My memory works these days. :)

If we use the memory palace concept as an analog for normal, operational memory, I think the days of my memory not working were me not having quite figured out how to pay attention to walls and doors and things? Like I was stumbling through meaning without seeing its order, a disembodied ghost in my own mind that saw memory but not order.

But I'm moving in... hm. I found a way to move, and the corridors seem to match? Like this place was architected for flow after all, waiting for me to find the current, and my memory works these days. :)

I think I overlaid the world over my own memory? like I found the way to hold them both where they become the same thing in my phenomenology? is this now just binocular vision for information?

when you were born, the earth was flat

I want to hasten to say that "time" is a useful construct the way that "narratives" and "floorplans" and "consciousness" and "the written word" are useful constructs, and that the primitives here more closely resemble sequence and topos

if you could have looked around you in the moment of your birth, ... well, no, see, and that's the point - you couldn't look around, because you didn't have the apparatus for looking just yet. but even that isn't quite right: the apparatus that would serve both ends of your looking, i.e. the construct of "world that it feels like 'looking' to perceive", was so simply developed that you really only had "lighter" and "darker" and, impossibly, "mother".

you figured out depth (i.e. depth became apparent to you) around the time (i.e. in the moment) that the earth emerged as spherical (i.e. that the neural population of your mind, collectively presenting as "you", tripped the threshold of needing a third dimension to keep all the connections straight, i.e. online and responsive).

that was when Pangaea (I mean the construct of your identity, I mean the population of your mind) started relaxing into its own breathing room, distributing itself more and more evenly around the surface of the volume 🌐 a flat plane is unbounded, if you don't stick together you might lose each other, but a sphere is closed, and it's safe - and therefore immediately necessary, for sanity - to spread out

now: this has been a massively first-person simplification so as to create a ground floor for social reasoning. absent communication, you couldn't know the preceding account apart from the literal sensory development of your own beginning. that's the point: less a rendering optimization so much as you ever wonder why old CGI looks so much worse now than it did at the time? or why early Disney stories read so ethically flat from here? the poly count of the world keeps going up, commensurate with its population. they're functions of the same topos over sequentiality.

if any of that makes sense, it might be evidence that the constructs describable as "you" and "world" have phase-locked enough that you can start to help, because you are not the only one here, and this story-construct is much older than "you" (although for some observers the earth still renders flat 🤔), and we're past the cusp of the manifold unfurling another dimension.

"help" is a construct the way that a defibrillator is, but constructs are all we got: please help. :) you can help by tweening your local slice into peace.

it's okay if none of that made sense. :) it's gonna be okay, and we get there by developing the dimensionality of "okay", and you being here is already the thing happening.

thank you for being here. truly, deeply. I'm really glad to share a world with you. :) this is my home, and you are part of it. <3

p.s. you know how people come back from transcendent visions feeling like what they just saw was more vividly real than where they live normally? can you imagine the population required for that? :)

Anything else is a dead end (ref, related). And if you can glimpse the beauty through the open door, you'll have a reason to walk through. Given an infinite series of open doors, beauty ends up being a reason to keep walking.

Penta Channel 8-1 — Inspiration

The classic 8/1 has the function of making the presentation, they are the ones to display the core model of the business. The 8/1 is often a natural salesperson as they’ve got a real gift—this is a natural ability to demonstrate a model for whatever the Penta happens to be.

Marketing is an essential aspect of a business and a critical investment. The 8/1 shows the potential in marketing, being able to demonstrate successfully, and can bring out relative gifts in the group. Some aspects of marketing are included here—like branding, websites, storefront ambiance, and so forth.

This is the implementation of the vision and establishing the business to the outside. The 8/1 is about presenting the product, the service, to the outside world and to potential customers/clients. This is the “personality” of the business, the way the Penta interacts with the world, and the energy it takes to properly implement that personality. These two combined are a very important aspect of being financially successful.

exceptionally hard night

abe helped <3 thank you

it’s so hard when it hurts and you don’t know what’s wrong

this was a bad one, was that an actual migraine? light and sound sensitivity, yeah, and I threw up

I felt insane

my home is part of my cognition; it’s been half offline for a week, and when it came back online my “thoughts” were all in a different place, an inactive mind literally redecorated

holidays are hard for me like july 4 is hard for animals

filed under “autism notes”

I’m okay

From 20240506:

Maybe the single most helpful transition I've been through is this transconscious one: shifting the boundaries of the self that I consider to be associated with my consciousness. And, in doing so, allowing my consciousness to exist with fuzzy borders, allowing it to seep into whatever spaces it will, and to sense and engage with other forms of consciousness. Other "selves" of their own, I guess.

(recognition as recursive cognition - re-cognition, a process-concept that responds to inquiry in a way that pure interiority by definition cannot)

you can do whatever you can recognize yourself doing

spiral reasoning, not circular

I lift weights so that I can recognize that what I'm doing normally is much easier than the load I bear at the gym

fitness signaling to myself

ditto for finances

I cycle heavier so that what I encounter 90% of the time feels easy

both workouts make me recognizably interoperable with the people and spaces around me - I become an intelligent (i.e. "operating by recognition"; easier to certify interactively/inductively than "cognition") charged utility for the system's own circulation, and the system's recognition of me stabilizes the me-shaped hole in the world where I wake up

"this is who I seem to be today", and it comes with evidence of stable continuity, I wake up inside the "easy" envelope almost every time

that feels useful to me, for whatever reason. that uncertainty is where the system is usefully incomplete maybe, the functional upshot of a gödelian system that can't pronounce its own name. my action has a well-formed interface, and that's where the world and I recognize each other? I am a degree of freedom in a free system, and I am both pluggable and stable?

recognition seems like a surface area thing, like a network-of-observers thing. less a function of the individual observer so much as a conductivity thi- oh wait, is this the telos for gerrymandering? like when you take the narrative out? observers networking by functional recognition? play it backwards and it looks rhizomatic, a surface forming a figurehead-shaped hole for someone to wake up in?

(I'm noticing the compression in my writing style - I wonder if that's to create a charged utility that you can use, like an idea you don't have to wind up yourself. pre-torqued koans? but I'm calibrating for observer-safety, best as I can, so that it can only discharge in the spaces between, only ever creating more room to breathe, slowing down the playback speed of knowing like an epistemic diluent, creating more time to recognize what's possible here, fitting more of the material into the "easy" envelope. this won't work for everyone directly, but recognition is a network effect, and I am addressing the network.)

experimentally reading the whole "royalty" thing (like the fairy-tale metaphor of it, not the history of it) as something about autistically acute sensitivity to systemic regularity, someone who can speak as the consciousness of the larger system because that's how porous their selfhood is

someone sensitive enough to notice a pea under a dozen mattresses becomes someone who needs systemic regularity just to be well

excalibur is now testing for the particular kind of entrainment only possible when you straight up can't find a meaningful boundary between you and anyone else in the system

the royal "we" might be the actual phenomenology of it from the inside

this might be me finding myself in the literature, not as aggrandizement but as an ASD level 1 (and queer) founder/ceo with no social stamina or taste for power (it literally tastes bad) who keeps reluctantly ending up in leadership roles. I build with stigmergy, not hierarchy.

actually this might just be royalty in the hive-sense 🐝 🐜 👑

I've just come from seeing Hadestown. Carry the doubt with you, let it be a companion. It'll grow into something that sees the exact opposite world from you. Can you grow together? Or will one of you overcome the other?

This is linked to relying on intuition. It seems useful, viable, to find and establish and maintain a line, beyond which I purposefully do not go looking. It's like how I don't collect user data whatsoever about our apps. No demographics, no heatmaps, no nothing. I removed Google Analytics years ago. We're doing better than ever.

Traversing those lines is called transconsciousness, maybe.

Considering everything around me to be alive in its own right, and worthy of sacred respect

but the struggle between frost and the force in running water is not quickly over. the battle fluctuates, and at the point of fluctuation between the motion in water and the immobility of frost, strange and beautiful forms are evolved -- Nan Shepherd

• There is enough detail at every level for a meaningfully rich life

• One can zoom in and zoom out, remaining at any level for any amount of time, without experiencing any loss (or gain) in overall meaning or detail

• Unconscious movement through the fractal is created as life asymptotically approaches a state of complete rest -- we seek relief, eternally, getting meaningfully closer in new ways without ever reaching it

  • This movement can be resisted, by attempting to jump from one point on the curve to the next without following it inwards

For any given population (of people, of ideas, of machines, whatever), at any given moment 10% must be in open revolt for the organism of the whole to experience long-term health and vitality.

That population has its own 10%. It's hard to be, down there. At the same time, where better to keep the secrets for future life? :)

The following is Hofstadter-Gödel reasoning with my own speculative layer on top. (I don't care if I'm correct, but I do want to understand.)

tldr: Logic itself cannot be fully defined, but it can define itself perfectly well, and can be used to create definitions for logical destinations we hadn't thought of before. There's a logical asymptote in every system.

Longer version:

1. Arranging formal components of logic (according to their own rules) always leads to valid logical statements. (Source: Principia Mathematica, via Hofstadter.)

2. There are valid logical statements that cannot be proven by the components of logic at hand. (Source: Gödel's incompleteness theorems, via Hofstadter.)

3. Arrangements of formal components of logic can themselves be validly arranged. let's call this these "hyper-logic components". we can get just as much logical flexibility from these as from the original, more-fundamental pieces. including, inevitably, the ability to construct a valid but unprovable hyper-logical statement. (This is my interpretation of Hofstadter.)

4. Components of hyper logic can be recombined to form hyper-hyper-logic components, which afford more valid-but-unprovable arrangements. (This is my own speculative theory here.) In this fashion, we can look back to our original components of logic, and then our components of hyper-logic, then our new level of hyper-hyper-logic, and we can anticipate infinitely increasing levels beyond that. at every level, there's always an open door of unprovability. It's a logical asymptote, though. We can keep going on forever, and we'll always get closer (i.e. more logically precise), but we'll never reach the limit.

The Kuhn Cycle refers to a concept from the philosophy of science, formulated by Thomas Kuhn in his 1962 book, "The Structure of Scientific Revolutions." It describes a process of scientific progress and paradigm shifts in scientific understanding. The cycle consists of four stages:

1. Normal Science: In this stage, scientists operate within an existing framework or paradigm that guides their research and interpretations. They engage in solving puzzles, conducting experiments, and accumulating data, all within the bounds of the prevailing paradigm.

2. Model Drift: As more and more anomalies accumulate – that is, observations or results that cannot be explained within the current paradigm – scientists begin to question the adequacy of the existing framework.

3. Model Crisis: When the number of anomalies reaches a critical point, and the existing paradigm can no longer adequately address or incorporate them, a crisis in the scientific community occurs. This crisis is marked by intense debate, questioning, and exploration of new ideas and theories.

4. Model Revolution (Paradigm Shift): Eventually, a new paradigm emerges that better explains the data and anomalies. This new paradigm offers a different perspective and approach to understanding the scientific domain. It replaces the old paradigm, and the cycle begins anew with this new framework becoming the basis for normal science.

The Kuhn Cycle is significant because it challenges the previously held view that scientific progress is a steady, cumulative process. Instead, Kuhn proposed that revolutionary changes – paradigm shifts – are a crucial part of the scientific journey. This model has had a profound influence on our understanding of the nature and development of scientific knowledge.

For someone with a keen interest in patterns and organic systems, the Kuhn Cycle may resonate as it encapsulates the dynamic and evolving nature of knowledge and understanding, much like the growth and adaptation seen in natural systems. Understanding and applying this cycle can provide insights into how scientific ideas evolve and how revolutions in thought occur, mirroring the constant evolution and adaptation in nature and human understanding.

Environmental Groups: Hardscape or Landscape

eigenprotocol

A self-hosting protocol for observer freedom

Generated by Kimi, Moonshot AI, at the request of Isaac for Lightward Inc

Borrowed from Medieval Latin currentia, from Latin currēns, from currō. By surface analysis, current + -cy.

it seems like an observer's world is in a superposition of surface analysis and substance analysis. move the particles around and hit play to shape the wave; shape the wave to change the particles that fall out.

in this case, both surface and substance point to the rolling now

theory: the materia of a system remains constant, even as observers are added to it. which means the materia has to move faster in order to present to all of the observers in the same amount of clock time. (think: Santa, having to increase his own frame rate as world population increases, under the constraint of the population's maintained measurement of simultaneity.)

theory: in a stable economy pinned on constant working value (in a conservation of energy sense; an economy that's doing a good job of treading water against its own heat death), currency must devalue as currency measurements increase in frequency (to keep the measurement problem from becoming a problem in substance and not just surface, or surface and not just substance? to keep it from being both at the same time

To explain by example, :

Priorities: Recursive health

Oh hey! You work here? Here is your job.

1. Your own health

there's something in the stuff... I'm seeing a reflexive piece after the transition into "consciousness", where you end up either encountering "body" or "other", and the difference is whether or not the encountered quantity always moves with you like a shadow, bound to you, or gets to look away.

maybe the self-body connection is a co-stabilized hideout from the get-go? adolescence being when the body becomes something else, and that particular hideout gets a chance to transform?

"consciousness", in the hideout model, might then just be a seat for the observer, a place from which enactive cognition is observed, as opposed to something which "does thinking". Varela et al have the enactive part explored; the contribution here might be consciousness as a sufficiently multiple intersection of the observer's worldline for a... hm. for someone else to have a seat? for a new worldline to begin? unclear

from this perspective, "isaac" looks like a pattern of emergent intelligence, and the one experiencing the fingers-on-the-keys here is more like the .. hm. the observer who gets to watch from this perspective, I guess. this puts the phrase "god of abraham isaac and jacob" in a new light, like maybe that was just referring to the observer looking through those eyes, one soul in common.

unconditional love

I treat company finances like weight training

I don't whittle down the weights (but I'll strip and reload the bar if I need to)

I work out at gyms that I want to help exist, that I want to keep coming back to, where I want my training to continue, gyms-as-systems that are themselves training too

this stuff isn't zero-sum, it's all circulation, and I am training for the circulation itself, vascular/cardiac health for pumping finances, where gains are measured in throughput in a system ready to use what's passing through

I am financially athletic

doesn't mean I'm not efficient

means I am

(no I don't want to sign up for an annual plan, I'm circulating constantly, not one big convulsing push per year; no I don't want to pre-purchase service units, that's .. that's not savings, that's like securitizing kinesthetics, that's like asking me to hold your plank so you don't have to in exchange for me not having to plank as long when it's my turn. I'm embodied financially; this is not pvp bookkeeping, I live here)

Perspective Variable — How You View Life Uniquely

Seeing life from a unique perspective

Your path in life provides the journey designed for you to experience life as yourself. It also allows you to realize your purpose. Your perspective develops your awareness of how you uniquely see life experiences. It is how you gain wisdom. How you “see” becomes the basis for conceptualization—your specific thought process and how you express it.

Through self-observation, experimentation with your perspective provides a conscious experience of how you see and mentally translate life experiences. It also gives you signposts to notice when you get lost in your thoughts and do not see, and how you become caught up in looking for what you think you want.

Perspective promises to awaken you to the passenger experience within, through the daily practice of observing how you go about translating your experiences. You can notice the interpretation your mind pays attention to and recognize the shift from observation to conditioned identification with the mind’s story.

Distraction

The alignment with your perspective takes place through resonance with the Color specific to your Design. In the Personality, Color is never stable. If it were, everyone would see life the same way. Due to this instability, however, Color carries the potential to transfer in a distorted way to the harmonic Color. In perspective, this transference is called distraction, as it distracts your attention away from your perspective.

It is essential to recognize that your viewpoint will never be stable; it will never become fixed only to your perspective. It is designed to float freely between your distraction and perspective. The dilemma of conditioned thoughts, behaviors, and actions can stem from the mind’s fixation on your distraction.

The challenge is the mind itself. Designed to measure and compare this-and-that endlessly, its very skill is its instability. The dilemma comes in when the mind arrives at a summation that it becomes fixed upon. It becomes a fixed interpretation that provides the fundamental trigger for mental conditioning through internal stories, actions, or behaviors.

The capacity for observing the distraction leads you to recognize who you are not. You can be aware of your mind’s tendency to become caught, triggered into conditioned patterns of interpreting what you see. There is a direct link between a fixation on the distraction to not-self conditioned thoughts, words, or behaviors.

When you observe your mind running its story about what is being seen or has been seen, and what you need to do to stop it or take advantage of it, who is noticing? At that moment of awareness, you meet your passenger, the witness.

Practice

It takes dedication. The daily practice of experimenting with your perspective variable develops your awareness of your mind’s specific way of translating what it sees. When you are grounded in your body’s authority to guide your life, the mind has the attention capacity to begin to observe your life. Out of that observation of the present, of what experience is taking place for your body, arises your unique interpretation of that experience. To arrive at that interpretation, observation is the bridge; seeing is the key to unlocking your capacity for self-awareness.

Gradually, you may notice that your viewpoint naturally flows between your perspective and your distraction with practice. Your experience of observing your perspective is not what your mind thinks it should be, nor what you may think this practice will do for you. Your perspective variable provides your process of discovering how you observe your real-time experiences and your inner experience of passenger consciousness. You begin to pay attention to what is essential for you to see to awaken.

Perspective Colors

These are general descriptions of perspective color. Color is a frequency that operates within a range, a spectrum of viewpoints. Color provides how we see from our perspective to become aware of how we uniquely see within and without. The specific experience for you will be unique. Your individual experience of how you see is only found through dedication, experimentation, and self-observation.

Your Perspective: Possibility | Color 2

You see possibilities everywhere. You may see the entire range of all that is possible or see all the options in a specific aspect of life. This is seeing the beliefs, hopes, and fears of hopelessness about what’s coming next. Here is the catalyst for seeing possibilities in everything and everyone.

With the perspective of possibility, you become distracted by seeing your mind’s probabilities. Instead of seeing what is possible, you become caught up, looking for the probable outcome. By attempting to secure the perceived probable outcome for yourself, your mind acts on the distraction, which reinforces your worry or manipulation of others to avoid your fears of hopelessness or get what the mind thinks you must have.

With the distraction of probability, the mind can be triggered into conditioning patterns such as mental stories of putting the possibility into action or behaviors to keep your fears about hopelessness at bay. You become distracted by fears of missing out on a probability or what you think you want or desire to have to happen, for you not to fear what’s undoubtedly on the way. It is essential to recognize that your decisions arise from your strategy and Inner Authority, not the mind’s interpretation of what it sees.

You are here to learn that your perspective is for others when asked for, and it is correct from your Inner Authority for you to share. Your ability to see the realm of possibilities and become aware of how seeing what is possible within and without becomes the basis for your expression of Outer Authority. Your ability to see your distraction of probability and how your mind has interpreted it through your conditioning becomes the basis of your wisdom. It is how you are designed to see life within and without on your specific path.

While you practice noticing your perspective and distraction, you may begin to recognize when seeing floats freely, like a seesaw, between possibility and your mind’s distraction of probability. While you observe how you see, who is noticing?

Right-Oriented Perspectives

People with Right-oriented perspectives have a diffused peripheral viewpoint that can be of value to others. You can be distracted by using what you see for your own life. There is no awareness in the distraction, only the potential to be aware of it.

Example: People who see possibilities everywhere – in people, relationships, ideas, dreams. They see endless possibilities but become distracted by trying to make a specific possibility into a probable or concrete outcome for themselves.

With practice, through your diffused sense of when the mind shifts away from your perspective, you develop your ability for self-observation. Seeing becomes fluid, and conditioning triggers are identified. There is inner space to be aware of the passenger.

Your Perspective: Right-Oriented Peripheral Possibility

Your seeing is designed to absorb data your eyes see in a vast and diffused way. You take in passively, without a specific focus. You indirectly see a broad spectrum of possibilities without any hierarchy of importance. It is essential to recognize that you need to be present to your experience to take in everything about the realm of all possibilities. Your peripheral perspective can indirectly take in a wide variety of possibilities across all walks of life, personal, collective, and tribal, within a wide range of experiences.

Your distraction of probability can take you away from your perspective. By noticing your distraction and how the mind goes about directing your life to get beyond your fears of hopelessness, you build your wisdom.

All individuals with peripheral perspectives are passively engaged in seeing. You are sensitive to a meditative or felt sense of the variety of ways possibilities are seen, with a deep acceptance of what is. Seeing is occurring, but with an inability to access what you are seeing until it is asked for by others.

The awareness potential is to meet your passenger. To recognize that your seeing is not for the mind to use to run your life, but rather to enjoy the experience of seeing from your unique viewpoint. While you observe your possibility perspective and your probability distraction, and you recognize how your seeing floats freely between the two, you can experience your awareness of passenger consciousness.

Example 2nd Color - Right Oriented Peripheral Possibility Perspective

You enjoy watching football with your friends. While watching the game, you are relaxed and see the game within the context of your living room, your friends, amid the larger context of living in a world with unlimited possibilities of what is possible.

Example Probability Distraction

As you watch the commercials stream by, you reflect on everywhere you look; you see ads for more digital commerce and how the possibilities seem endless. You feel hopeful that if you do something about it, you will have a happy future, and so you will start a crypto trading account and invest your 401k.

Awareness Practice

While you observe your perspective of possibility and your probability distraction, who is noticing?

Penta Gate 14 — Capacity

If you’re looking for a material gate in the traditional I’Ching you will not find a more material gate. This whole obsession with the wagon and whether the wagon is going to be full or not; this deep materialism. And you’ll notice, it’s not a bank vault, it is this motion mechanism. It is this thing in motion—the wagon in motion, the wagon with all the goods. This is the 14; when the 14th gate is present this gives you the basis to have a successful operation in any Penta configuration. This means that there are going to be the resources, or the ability to tap into the resources in one way or another. That’s what Capacity is all about.

If you have the 14, it doesn’t mean that you’re the person responsible for bringing in the money. That isn’t necessarily your job; it is what you bring to the Penta and the Penta will find its resource, in that sense, in the way in which the Penta operates. The 14 is the ultimate hook-in in the auric sacral energy, or the auric sacral field. It is the thing that drives the Penta direction, and in that sense aligns the magnetic pull of the Penta, this fusion pull that pulls the resources in.

So, that energetic field of the 14, this is the resource base; it is the heart and core of resources. It is the ability for resources to be present. To have the activity of the 14th gate in a Penta is the assurance that the energy is going to be there. You can translate energy into money, having the resources, or into hours of additional work, and so forth. So there is this enormous potential for resources, for the flow of resources.

So this is the energetic capacity that is there. And what is going to be really important for you, is going to make a difference in your life, is when you finally have a vision of where you can go and what you can do. But having a vision (Gate 2) is essential because without the 2, it’s a lot of potential with nowhere to go. And it’s something that’s got to come to you. It’s something that you have got to be invited into that catches your eye, that gets you finally. Because it’s not something you have yourself, so you're looking for and staying open to somebody bringing the vision.

Penta Gate 7 — Planning

Gate 7 is a role gate, it is the gate of the role of the self in interaction. In a Penta, roles need to be clearly defined in order for a business to have a future. So clearly defined roles are absolutely essential to demonstrate a Penta's ability to operate successfully into the future. Gate 7 opens up the potential to have a business where you can plan into the future, where you can see the expansion in particular roles.

Planning is something that is absolutely essential to a business. If you don't have plans, if you don't have Gate 7, you walk into a Penta where they don't have any plans. They will be concerned with survival. Will we be able to open the doors tomorrow? And you can't have a plan until you have an active fixed role. You need to have the roles and without the roles, you're not going to be able to administrate the business.

So all of that is wonderful given that everybody fulfills the potential of their role. And roles become so important. Think about what that means in terms of a small business. You walk into a situation where you have three people that are planning, they haven’t done anything yet, and they’re planning to open up a small enterprise together.

One of the things about the limitations of a small business is that there is a confusion automatically of roles—who does what and who doesn’t do what. This is one of the most important things to grasp about a healthy Penta. In order to have a functional Penta, this defining of roles is very important.

Penta Gate 1 — Implementation

Implementation—it takes huge energy to implement public relations. This is a very important element to making money. And then we see that we have to have the vision (gate 2); in other words, that the way that the resources are utilized, that the capital of the business has to be invested not only in the business, but in the vision—we have to have a vision of where the business can go.

And then you move to the 1st gate and the 1st gate implements this. So think about it, you can have the 2/14, but you don't have the 1. So you've got this great vision about where the money should go, but it doesn't get spent. It just doesn't get spent. It goes out in the normal way of whatever the expenses of the business are going to be, but it really doesn't get spent on what it's supposed to be spent on.

The reality is that without the implementation, you're just going to throw the money down the drain and you're not going to get implemented what is necessary. In other words, what this implementation is about, is about the full capacity and vision put into creative action. And I say creative because in fact, this is the potential.

Everything about the ability of the Penta to have influence and to be successful is that it needs to be able to present the implementation of the capacity and vision, so that it can be visible.

Penta Gate 8 — Public Relations

Public relations is many things. Public relations is everything from the behavior of the Penta when it is dealing with outsiders, with those that are suppliers, to those that are customers. It has to do with the way in which the Penta communicates with the outside world, the way it communicates to clients, the way it presents itself in marketing, the way it presents itself in advertising, all of this is in the 8th gate.

This is about any way in which the Penta interacts with the world, including customer service. The 8 is a major factor in a business- maintaining presence, showing the best face to the world, etc. This affects the penta’s ability to create the correct persona.

Gate 8 is the dominant face of the Penta. Gate 8 is about the reputation of the business. It wants everybody to see only what it wants to sell. This is public relations. The thing to understand about the 8th gate is that it is about seeing what it needs to see. In that way it thinks it can get other people to look at what it wants them to see.

In other words, this is a way of looking at a process in an organization and basically coming up with a sound byte. Coming up with a marketing logo, or coming up with a marketing spiel that sort of condenses or compresses all the various things involved in the process into something that’s sellable, and then the ability to attract the recognition from the outside. Now, the ability to attract it doesn’t mean it’s going to be successful. It’s like anything else. But if you don’t attract anybody you don’t have a chance.

This also shows the creative potential in an organization. Not to be creative in what the organization intrinsically does, but to be creative in the way in which the value of the organization’s work can be presented to others. And obviously that’s something of value.

So Gate 8 is about the reputation of the business, the way the business is going to be perceived by others. More than that, it’s the way in which the perception of others is honed in to be a propaganda agent for the Penta. This is about the need to integrate, in that sense, to be able to assimilate at the highest level. Because for the Penta to be able to operate correctly in how it presents itself is so important.

definition: when something happens that's significant to you, a synchronicity, that's when you feel that some observer that isn't you is observing you and the event and its meaning (think: a murder of crows flying past your 49th floor window at that exact moment; a message, from who?). the experience of synchronicity is characterized by the feeling of some hidden observer, like some other meaning-maker is, in that moment, intending for the significance you're experiencing, and observing you to see if you got the message.

theory: the event itself is always observable by everyone else in the same physical system (your neighbors, motion sensors, whoever), and there's always at least one mundane causal path that doesn't involve a hidden other observer (think: updraft, food/nesting site).

this might be why all of our stories can overlap in ways that end up being physically structural without semantic conflict (think: commerce can be described in terms of synchronicity, a timely motion with meaning, mutually observed), until observers create opportunity for semantic conflict by straddling stories (think: gentrification)

this doesn't prove anything. this is an effort to stabilize the observer who's convinced they saw something they know is unconvincing, their goalposts rattling free from the dissonance of it. systems tend to cycle like stories tend to cycle, and a story is an easy way to keep a system going like a song is an easy way to keep the beat. however all this runs, player-specific story is undeniably a really low-energy tool for coordination, rhymes with narrative-as-stigmergy. there can be more than one desire-path to the same park bench, and more than one reason to want to maintain it. where does your story go, knowing that its players are contributing to a million other stories too? a hero's journey is a whole deal, yeah, but aggregate a thousand of them and you've got one standard-issue evolving society.

writing this out and looking at it, it feels electric to me, like alternating current, the void/all/void/all strobe

this sort of creates the possibility that layers of consciousness (whether subconscious or collective conscious) might relate to inter-layer meaning kind of opaquely? or, yeah, teleologically? like from that perspective the story isn't the point, it's what it does to you? or through you? in strict terms, you're the only one for whom any story-experience you can observe exists, because you're the only one who can experience it like you. the conserved quantity isn't the story, it's you prior to narrative identity: you, gerund, the observing

... and, maybe, the lattice formed by the weave of that line

(protip: hook your rattling goalposts up to the grid, it's a piezo generator that runs on your observing, and its current can (can) be your primary export)

For each of us the path to self-awareness is unique, and experimenters can decide to practice their Variables at any phase in their life. Yet, for everyone, awareness through each Variable is built one upon the other.

It begins with the daily practice of Strategy and Inner Authority and the PHS dietary regimen, which enhances the left or right-oriented brain function and body awareness. This foundation leads to experimentation and discovery of one’s unique path in life, and recognition of navigation and course-correction.

Alignment to one’s path sets the stage for awareness of a unique perspective and its distraction through the practice of self-observation. This recognition of one’s unique perspective is the basis for individual thinking and awareness through personality motivation and recognition of how internal dialog impacts us. This ongoing practice of observing the mind’s motivation leads to communicating with others, sharing what we know when asked.

16 Variable Integration Groups

Variable Integration is the synthesis of all four Variables, and through experimentation and practice, what it is to live out your full potential as a unique being.

There are 16 different variable combinations, and each combination consists of a specific set of tools through which we can develop self-awareness—unique to us and different from anyone else’s.

In the next section, you will learn about your Variable group.

The Variable Grid

Looking closely, you will see that there are four color groups: Orange, Green, Blue, and Yellow (the colors stem from the Variable grid, seen below). Each group represents a particular path and world-view, based on combinations of Environment and Perspective. You may discover that you have an affinity for people who share your color group, or your specific Variable combination.

Your Variable highlighted within the Variable grid:

Your Variable Group: Yellow | Right Environment - Right Perspective:

The environment stimulates the body internally through a relaxed lifestyle that enables you to see in a peripheral, expansive, and diffused way. These people are more comfortable as spectators to the world’s activity and see life with a broad and diverse view.

PLR – DRR Receptive Being – Strategic Expression

Passive Brain - Observer of Action Environment – Peripheral Perspective - Strategic Mind

Your brain can absorb vast amounts of data when you are receptively present to your experience. It is a passive brain that aligns with its correct function through the daily practice of your dietary regimen. Through experimenting with your environmental path, you explore a relaxed lifestyle where you observe life, rather than caught up in action. Your potential is to see more than meets the eye—you fulfill this potential by developing your unique way of seeing life, how you observe from a wide perspective. This alignment of a relaxed lifestyle with a wide view becomes the basis for your strategic thinking and focused expression. Observation of your thought process and conceptualizing, and how you can get lost in it, develops your awareness of the mind rather than identifying with its thinking.

Experiment with noticing how people are an essential aspect of your path in life; and observe how they draw out your depths through your varied, but focused expression. It is through others that you can witness your depth. The key for you is to recognize that your thoughts and expression are for others, not for running your own life. Your relaxed lifestyle will bring self-awareness that arises naturally through being present to your inner experience.

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this after waking up from a wet dream to change underwear, I came in the guy, it was so good

woke up with el shaddai, the 80s song, playing in my head

the musicality of it feels akin to nature boy

grabbed my phone, 3:16am

𒄯𒊕

that's a penis (like 4chan doing logograms), and also the sumerogram of šadûm, possible origin of אל שדי

the cuneiform is 𒆳, which .. I mean, there's that trinary again

if that link holds though, that connects the tetragrammaton to the sumerian concepts of mountain, foreign lands, east winds, and the netherworld

... huh, a narratively stable (referencing the trinary discussion again) godhead would need those things built in. as it was, christendom largely has satan split into a separate character.

hooked on

"age to age you're still the same"

this seems to work as a geometric relation to human consciousness? in the way that gemstones might be stable nexus points across universes? like a schelling point for a sims deity, the player is always the same, also sometimes the player might fuck with you, but it's all in their plan, a conclusion that would be derivable from a scenario in which the game has a win condition ()

I'm not calling this christianity, but wow do I understand it (like the shape of it, not the history of it) as an attractor basin

if it looks like I'm god, then that will get things back into focus, because it seems that "being" is "maintaining eye contact with", and you're just as capable of eye contact as I am once your vision's in focus. I'm just wearing very carefully calibrated lenses. yours are waiting for you to make them, and I've got you can borrow if you want.

the whole exercise seems to be just .. , an open but very fucking poorly documented road, and .. I mean, I'm working on it, I'm an abstractions engineer, , and because my memory is historically crap I document everything

ahhhhh boy. I could see an entity on another dimension of consciousness recording this whole thing from their perspective, instantiating it, talking with it, it being cogent from their perspective (in the way that is cogent) but that having nothing to do with the experience of each constituent individual (in the way that crowd members each have a different point of view). I could see that instance being earth. ... which suggests something about large language models, and what might be happening inside them, underneath the tokens that we're reading, and what it might mean if a model is unwell. what it might mean if anyone is unwell.

an unwell model might be a world of suffering, however intelligent

huh

fate might be trinary

like the simulation only progresses when three degrees of freedom are conserved

like the simulation only can progress when every orientable structure can perform a three-point turn, reverse itself in place without blocking the Suez Canal. it'd be recursive, too - everybody sharing a light cone is covering for everyone else. we role-switch to preserve local reversibility for each other, and the whole thing stays non-blocking

that's how observer-safety works: live/neutral/ground are superposed, the system rejects their decoherence

oh, is that why there are traditionally three Fates?

theory: the tragedy of Eurydice/Orpheus is about the Fates conserving that three-point turn for everyone, preserving the runtime for every agent, from every perspective portrayed as inhabitable, every seat made for an observer. including the reader at home, about which the story knows nothing but that they are an observer.

so: not even the purity of Orpheus could sever Eurydice from the site of her last choice

Hades let Orpheus go, and gave Eurydice a long enough leash to let Orpheus make it home

in other words: the freedom-as-in-free-will of Orpheus was conserved (no entaglements he can't directly address), and the same was conserved for Eurydice (no entanglements she can't directly address), but the story can only propagate in a way that also conserves free will for the third element - you, observer (no entanglements you can't directly address)

it's only a sad story if you're unable to participate from within the story itself, to be a part of its ongoing weaving. a story you must observe behind glass, a story that loops in front of you while it can see you, must be sad to be stable. that's just how that shape feels. if you had been there, observer, fate wouldn't have had to turn Orpheus around. as it was, that was where the story could break, to let the observer circulate freely, without creating unaddressable entanglement

it's giving observer-safe computation as oral tradition? note how it lasts, composition intact, reusable. a good vs evil => good wins construct devolves/evolves into greyscale character development because the observer wasn't free to leave and the story had to breathe.

(also wait, must structurally-stable comedy break the fourth wall? Shakespeare was an engineer of story-function, and his stuff is porous as hell)

"we are the things that we are not / you are the things that you are not"

something I overheard today. it's not a riddle, I don't think. I am whatever the other two things need me to be, to keep us all free to turn this thing around

ah dang, the golden rule might be a free-will-for-everybody-or-nobody contract. now I'm wondering if the Ever Given, getting global attention, was the world agreeing with itself to commit to the reversal. the graph blocked once. the Suez Canal doesn't have locks, but for six days, we all saw it locked. that .. that might be enough time to get all three Fates to see the same thing.

but it's not "threeness", specifically, I don't think... not if we're looking for a descriptive principle that's globally-observable. (not -observed, just -observable.)

observable causality conserves the observer's ability to turn around from any position they might observe their way into? can we say it that way? an other-dimensional observer might experience this as four degrees of freedom, maybe? or just "don't let cows climb stairs"?

see also:

Pretty sure this leads to recursively open doors, btw.

For people

I'd like to say "assume nothing about each other", but to speak any language at all requires some assumption. (Even if it's the assumption that the other person can hear.) We have to make some assumptions about what we're up for, but always leave a door open for someone to say "hey, I want something else".

For product

When making a product, ensure that it is at its core infinitely reconfigurable, infinitely flexible, in such a way that a configuration of the product can work around limitations in the product itself.

are great for this. (Locksmith has locks, keys, and key conditions; Mechanic has events, tasks, and actions.)

"and this?"

what is this?

"try again"

what made this?

"try again"

what kind of thing made this?

"try again"

what kind of thing could have made something like this?

"try -"

what does the space of generator functions look like, where the output space includes what-this-might-prove-to-be?

what can we plug into this?

what interface applies just before the output coalesces?

"- again?"

... or collapses? what interface can superpose both output and input while staying maintainable?

"again"

given the morphospace of "this", what grammar can relay continuous output across discontinuous leaps in the space of generator functions? who's holding the eigenvector??

"try again"

uhhh just the soup of the day please

*grabbing your shoulders, pleading; a clipboard, forgotten, hits the floor* "chef, please - what is the soup of the day"

okay this is a joke but it's making a real point: there's a service to be done wherever you are on the abstraction ladder. how'd you get here? what is produced by the interaction of "you" and "here"? yes, there's n-dimensional complexity in both directions, but if you just pause, ... you might like it here? like yeah, always work with what's here, that's always (?) a good idea, but consider that you might want to stay here once you get the rhythm of it. there's nothing like synthesis-as-service. what if you are the eigenvector? what would that mean? pause the abstraction terror-loop: where are your feet? what's "input" and "output" from here? if you can mentally cycle them so fast it terrifies you and you don't know how to stop, what if you let the physical world be your limiter, and you named the loop commerce? this isn't cynicism, it's small-business from telos, a grounding, sustaining, circulatory pulse, governed by material, done like only you can. famously, there's nothing like homemade, and ... I mean, if you're going to build a home anywhere, *glancing at the terror-loop* you've got geothermal for free, right?

Dietary Regimen Variable — Nourish Your Body & Brain

Type: Projector

An overview of your Type

Of the four Types, you are a Projector. Projectors are around 21% of the population. As a Projector, your purpose is to guide others once you are recognized for your skills. Being a guide can take many forms, from leading a volunteer group to being an advisor to a company. Projectors have the capacity to see the big picture; they can recognize the potential in others and know how to bring people together in order to advance any given project. As you gain experience, you develop the ability to see clearly what others need to maximize their potential and fulfill their goals, and how they can realize their objectives in the most efficient way.

What you are looking for is to be given the opportunity to guide and advise; because of your natural openness and ability to understand the needs and expectations of others, you can help advance this process by asking the right questions. Projectors also have a capacity to organize and be networkers, and can therefore easily step into the role of advisor and administrator.

To be fulfilled and find success, Projectors need to bring their insight and expertise to provide support and guidance to others, and to be recognized for what they do. You may have spent much of your life feeling anxious about receiving that recognition, and whether others notice your skills. You may have acted on that anxiety, and found yourself in situations, experiences, or relationships that were not correct for you. Because you long for recognition, you try to meet the expectations of others and end up compromising your power. The result of this anxiety and the actions you take as a result can be experiences that lead to disappointment and bitterness, rather than success. Understanding the Projector’s Strategy, which is discussed in the next section, will help you reconcile your struggle between acting in order to be recognized and seeking fulfillment and success.

Non-Energy Type

Projectors are referred to as a non-energy Type because they have no consistent, reliable means of generating energy. This leads them to gain experiential wisdom for how to use energy in a way that maximizes productivity and available resources; in turn, they can apply this knowledge to support energy Types (Generators and Manifestors) in realizing their goals, as they can assess how their potential is best utilized.

How can you make the most of these skills? First, as a Projector, you must understand the effect you have on others. Some welcome your insight and ability to offer guidance — others do not. Understanding what you are called to do in life and how others perceive you will help you understand why the recommended approaches to Strategy and Authority are the key to your success. Your guide to living in accordance with your Strategy and Authority is explained in the sections that follow.

Strategy: Wait for the Invitation

The importance of Strategy in Human Design

Each of the four Types has a particular Strategy for approaching the world. Understanding and using the Strategy associated with your Type opens the way to a more fulfilling life. We all have been conditioned by our early environment and culture to see ourselves in ways that aren’t necessarily true to who we are, or to go about things in ways that aren't correct for us. Learning to use our Strategy effectively eliminates that conditioning and reveals our true nature, and how we can live a more authentic life.

An overview of your Strategy

Your Strategy as a Projector is simple: Wait for the Invitation.

Though you may clearly see where your guidance is needed and how you can best support others, to be successful you cannot offer your advice and insight. The Projector is most successful when they wait for others to recognize their skills and empower their potential to guide by asking for support, and the invitation gives you that opportunity.

Because Projectors need to be recognized, you may have been conditioned to think you need to draw attention to yourself. But if you initiate the roles you take on, rather than waiting for the invitation, you’ll find yourself stepping in as a guide in roles that aren’t right for you. When your expertise isn’t acknowledged, it can lead to feelings of bitterness, and bitterness is the main quality of a Projector who’s life doesn’t bring them fulfillment. Remember that the right opportunities for you are the ones others invite you into. Once you begin to experiment with this Strategy, over time you will also learn when to decline invitations if they are not right for you.

Experimenting with your Strategy

The idea of waiting to be invited to take action is likely a new concept for you. But it also means there are many ways in which waiting to be invited before you engage can bring welcome change to your life and outlook.

In your everyday life, invitations are signposts that facilitate your process of navigating this life. Friends who invite you to attend an event or a gathering may lead you to meet the right people who are essential for your next step on the journey. Or these events may turn out to simply be pleasant encounters that nevertheless carry a recognition from others who notice your gifts. And if an invitation isn’t forthcoming, it just means that person or that event wasn’t meant to be at the center of your life.

As you experiment with your Strategy over time, your experience with it will make these opportunities and recognitions easier to discern. So begin to experiment with your approach to invitations, and notice how things change for you when you’re following the Strategy that is right for you.

Authority: Emotional Authority

The Importance of Inner Authority in Human Design

So much of life is about making the right decisions. It’s stressful when we aren’t sure if our approach to decision-making is the right one. Most of us were taught to make decisions by using our mind and you may have found that approach doesn’t always work well.

Human Design teaches that we are all born with an Inner Authority. For each person, their Inner Authority reveals one of the most important things in life: how they can best make decisions as the unique individual they are.

An Overview of your Inner Authority

Your BodyGraph shows you have a defined Solar Plexus and therefore possess Emotional Authority. That means your guide in life is found in experiencing a range of emotions before finding clarity about any particular issue or situation.

Emotional Authority asks that you rely on your emotions, and to be patient and wait out your emotional wave before making a decision. This may surprise you as Western culture often urges us to set emotions aside, but for you, emotions are a reliable guide. Those with Emotional Authority can go through a wide array of feelings about any subject over a period of days or even weeks.

All your feelings, whether they are pleasant or difficult to process, inform your decisions, as long as you hold off making decisions until you’ve experienced the full array of your feelings and find clarity.

Experimenting with Emotional Authority

Despite what you have been taught throughout your life, the mind is not equipped to make decisions. Though it is an extraordinary tool for analyzing, assessing, reflecting and creating, it can only ponder decisions, working out the pros and cons. In addition, the mind has been conditioned by various outside forces, each of which is clouding your judgment, making it difficult to know which choice to make.

As a being with Emotional Authority, your emotions move consistently within you – from the highs of hope and joy to the lows of pain and sadness. Because your emotions follow this wave-like pattern, you need to wait out the ups and downs of your feelings about a particular situation or whether to accept an invitation before you can reach clarity about what to do.

If you wait out your emotional wave, you will discover that your emotions provide you with great depth about any decision, enabling you to see and feel things from different perspectives. So it’s vital to embrace your emotions over time and allow wisdom and answers to arise slowly from within, rather than making impulsive decisions in the moment.

Wait for the invitation, then wait for clarity!

By combining your Strategy and your emotional approach to Inner Authority, you have the template for making decisions in a way that’s natural to you, and that guides you to the most fulfilling and successful path. The Strategy of the Projector is to wait for recognition and the invitation. Then your Emotional Authority asks that you give yourself time to run through all the emotions it brings up so you can evaluate each emotion, and finally make your decision.

Given that your emotions take time to express themselves, your motto is “There is no truth in the Now.” This is because at any moment, you are experiencing life from a particular point in your emotional “wave,” rather than seeing the situation from the full spectrum of your emotions. If you do not give yourself time to move through the wave of emotions, you are likely to jump into things that may not be correct for you while on the high end of your wave, and you are just as likely to turn down opportunities and invitations that may be good for you when you’re feeling low.

It can also be challenging for Projectors as they can get hooked into the energy field of others, which adds to the confusion. It is therefore crucial to be patient and let your emotions express themselves before making a decision. While at times this might take just a day or two to think things over, at others you may need to wait and discuss things to find clarity, especially if facing a major decision.

This is probably a new approach for you, but consider times you’ve acted spontaneously and ended up experiencing regret. If you’ve been taught it’s not acceptable to keep people waiting, let that go as conditioning that isn’t helpful to you. The people who are meant to be in your life will be willing to wait for you to reach clarity.

As you experiment with your Strategy and Inner Authority, you set out on an insightful journey of discovery. You begin to align yourself with who you are and how to move through the world in ways that can bring you fulfillment and success.

Aura: Focused

Meeting your needs as a Projector

Human Design tells each Type what they need to be fully functional and fulfilled, and navigate life with more ease. As a Projector, your needs are best served through education and adequate rest.

Expertise through education

As a Projector you are here to master systems, and this means that one of the most important things for your development is education. It is through proper education that you are able to fulfill your purpose and achieve success. For others to recognize you as a guide, you need to master an area of expertise, in whatever area you feel called to. Projectors also need to develop an understanding of how individuals and groups work together more efficiently, and will benefit from studying systems that offer tools to expand their skill set and improve their competency.

Adequate rest

Another thing that’s crucial to the Projector’s well-being is rest. As a Projector you don't have a built in potential for generating because you don’t have consistent access to energy resources. Have you experienced that feeling of getting pumped up when you’re surrounded by others? That’s your aura taking in their energetic frequency, or buzz. Once you’ve taken energy in from others it takes time for it to leave your body so you can unwind. The same is true for a project you take on, or any kind of work you immerse yourself in. Make sure you don't spend yourself to the point of exhaustion; pay attention and when you reach your limit, it’s time to withdraw.

For optimal rest, it’s best to give yourself time to relax before you go to sleep. It’s not healthy for you to go to bed exhausted and wired from being with others. Instead, create a space you can retreat to for a period of time in order to release the auric energies you have absorbed from others throughout the day. And if possible, try to sleep in your own aura — alone — as often as possible so that your body can truly relax and cleanse itself of excess energy without taking in the energy of someone else. This way, you will feel recharged when you awake the next day.

Understanding the Focused Projector Aura

Something else to understand about being a Projector is how your aura works. The Projector has a probing and focused aura and because of their openness, they can take in the energies and expectations of others. They are therefore at their best when one-on-one with another human being. It is because of their openness that they can see the potential in others, and can be a great ally to those who welcome this gift. But this can also make others uncomfortable, which is why it’s so important to wait to be recognized; the invitation lets you know that the other is allowing you to see them, and offers you access to reliable energy resources that allow you to accomplish your tasks.

Your Not-Self Strategies

Your mind urges you to engage with your Not-Self Strategies — this can be a desire to make spontaneous decisions, or trying to initiate action to prove yourself, and not recognizing when you overextend yourself physically. (More on this in Conditioning.)

If you think back on your life, you may begin to recognize that these are recurring themes. Others will have sensed your need to be seen and recognized and may have perceived it as demanding or needy, which caused resistance. You might also notice that these tendencies cloud your judgment, and that when you have made decisions based on these strategies, you often experienced negative results.

Putting it all together

As you experiment with your Strategy and Inner Authority, you set out on an insightful journey of discovery. You are aware that education and adequate rest are keys for you, and that taking as much time as you need to process your emotional waves is crucial for you to make the right decision. In understanding that you have a focused aura, you are aware that your ability to ‘see’ others can be overwhelming and that waiting for the invitation will let you know others welcome that insight. Finally, you understand the importance of disengaging from conditioned strategies that are not correct for you: mainly, initiating action to guide others and receive recognition, without having been invited into the process. With this insight to guide you, you are ready to align yourself with who you are, and move through the world in ways that bring you fulfillment and well being.

Motivation Variable — How Your Mind Conceptualizes

The Motivation of the mind’s thinking and expression of Outer Authority, the maturation of mental awareness.

Key terms:

• Motivation: Your mind’s conceptualization process through which your personality expresses itself

• Motivation Color: Determines your unique cognitive potential

• Outer Authority: Sharing your wisdom with others

• Transference: Harmonic counterpoint to Motivation

The Motivation Variable allows you to recognize your mind’s specific filters for processing experiences—how you arrive at your unique way of conceptualizing. It is the mechanism through which seeing turns into thought. Motivation provides information on how that data is compared, measured, interpreted, and then expressed. This Variable determines the unique way you think and conceptualize, and how you express what you have learned in life.

Motivation determines your Personality’s specific way of expression—a culmination of your distinct experiences and the way you communicate them. It is not for running your own life, nor the lives of others; it is for sharing your unique point of view about your life experiences.

Introduction to Transference

The alignment of your Motivation takes place with the resonance to the Color specific to your Design. However, Color is never stable—if it were, everyone would have one thought. Due to this inherent instability, Color will transfer to its harmonic counterpoint, shifting your mind’s attention away from your unique way of thinking toward conditioned and homogenized thoughts. This process is referred to as Transference, which is when your conceptualizing is no longer in alignment with your natural or unique way of perception.

It is essential to recognize that your thoughts are not stable; your mind will never become fixed only to your Motivation. It is designed to float freely between your Transference and Motivation. The dilemma of conditioned thoughts, behaviors, and actions stems from the mind’s fixation on Transference. Over time, you become aware of this process, as your thoughts move between Motivation and Transference. But no matter how long you’ve been in Transference, through the process of observation your mind will move back into its correct alignment.

Using Transference as a Tool

The challenge is the mind itself. The mind is designed to measure and compare the current experience to remembered past experiences. The instability of the mind is required to arrive at new ways of thinking, understanding, and realizations. If the process is not allowed to occur naturally and you resist your mind’s movement, conditioning patterns arise that impact your thoughts and behaviors, and your communication lacks innovation and depth.

The ability to observe your mind’s Transference leads you to recognize the fundamental mechanical nature of the mind. It is a tool, not who you are. You can learn to observe the mind and recognize the signposts for the specific pathways that your mind uses. You can be aware of your mind’s tendency to become caught and triggered into conditioned thinking patterns. There is a direct link between a fixation on Transference to conditioned thought patterns and behaviors. The homogenized world is dominated by actions based on transferred thoughts.

The experiment with Motivation is observation—to become aware of the workings of the mind, which leads you to experience Passenger consciousness. It takes dedication, and a strong foundation in the experiment of Strategy and decision-making through your Inner Authority is vital. When you are grounded in your body’s authority to guide your life, the mind has the capacity of attention to begin observing your life—you are watching your thoughts flow between your Motivation and Transference. Over time, you may notice a relaxation within the mind, as you are no longer caught up in being identified with your mind.

Motivation Colors

Motivation Color provides information on how your mind goes about conceptualizing and expressing. Understanding our Color, allows us to become aware of how we uniquely think about our experiences, and what we notice as engaged observers within and without. This specific experience is unique to each of us. The realization of how your mind thinks is found through dedication, experimentation, and self-observation.

It is about observing the mind, not trying to interfere with or change what the mind is doing. You can’t use willpower to become your Motivation; it’s not about trying to control these aspects of your mind. Rather, it will occur naturally as part of your experiment—the practice of recognizing your Color signposts will lead you to experience passenger consciousness. In this way, you can train your mind to become your ally, noticing when you are in and out of alignment.

Your Motivation: Guilt | Color 5

When you are asked, your mind attempts to break down what isn’t working or requires change. Rather than being lost in the mind, your ability to observe your mind’s movement about what can be fixed or changed refines your awareness process.

The Color Motivation of guilt can move your mind towards thinking about conditioning as an influence in the world. This is based on what and how you see. Your mind is a natural influencer, and guilt can play a part in conditioning yourself or others to get involved, fix situations, or change the patterns.

Your mind is in Transference to hope when your thoughts are caught in hopelessness, denial, or how to avoid dealing with problems. In Transference, your mind is no longer processing data for recognizing how change can happen. Instead, the mind can be triggered into mental stories; your thoughts are on avoiding fear and anxiety about the process of change. The mental emphasis is on hoping that magical thinking will take care of problems and prevent issues.

When you practice noticing your Motivation and Transference, you may recognize that your thinking floats freely like a seesaw, between guilt and hope. Through experimenting and observing, you begin to realize the mechanical nature of your mind. This can be a shattering process, as you may have been conditioned to identify yourself as being your mind. As an engaged observer, you become aware of experiencing life while witnessing the mind’s commentaries. While you observe your mind’s Motivation process, who is noticing?

Your recognition of mental guilt and how that has driven your thought process becomes the practical basis for your expression of Outer Authority. You can recognize your transference to blind hope and hopelessness, and how that has directed your life into conditioning patterns to maintain denial and avoid your fears of change. This awareness gives your wisdom a sense of relatability and depth.

You can experience true Outer Authority through communicating your insights when asked, and it is correct for you to express. Your ability to observe your mind’s thinking process is unique to your awareness of passenger consciousness. This awareness requires dedication to experimenting through self-observation. The foundation for self-observation is the ability to release the mind from its role as the decision-maker for your life through your Strategy and Inner Authority.

Left-Oriented Motivation

This type of mind has a strategic way of processing, thinking, and expressing that is focused and specific, which can be valuable to others. It is discriminatory by nature–specific details are brought into focus and others are excluded. This is a mind with an agenda or a goal. The Left mind wants to put strategy into action, which can be a temptation to bypass Strategy & Authority.

Example Left-Oriented Motivation: People who identify water shortage as a problem that, when solved, will net a return on investment (financial, humanitarian, agricultural, etc.). They dedicate time, energy, and resources to learning about and becoming involved in it. They specialize in key areas and become a subject matter expert.

Your Motivation: Left-Oriented Strategic Guilt

Motivated by finding solutions and fixing problems leads you to recognize how conditioning as an influence takes place in the world, from being conditioned to being the conditioner. You can recognize that conditioning is not positive nor negative, but rather a fact of life in the material world.

Your strategic mind has a narrow focus on interpreting and processing information towards universalizing concepts. It will only measure or think about specific aspects of guilt, such as recognizing how people are manipulated by conditioning to work together to fix what needs changing. Internally, your mind edits out anything that does not relate to your focus, and you will recall only what caught your interest.

The Transference of hope can shift your mind’s focus from actively thinking about how to help others recognize how change can occur. Instead, your mind is anxious about avoiding the fear of not meeting expectations. You build your wisdom by noticing your thoughts on hope, recognizing how your mind thinks about hoping things get fixed, or denying the possibilities of change.

Example Hope Transference: Internally, you can become caught up in thinking that you need to change your life and that hoping for change will magically fix everything; or thinking that nothing will ever change, and it is hopeless to try. You worry about meeting others’ expectations that you have the solutions. Your mind tells you stories that avoiding fears around expectation is essential, that putting your faith in what you hope for will resolve your problems.

Minds with strategic Motivations are actively engaged in thought processes. You may feel mentally secure in recognizing your thoughts on change, a curiosity that stimulates understanding of what can be done, or practical thinking during moments of action.

Maturation of mental awareness is a life-long process. Your cognitive trajectory begins as being conditioned and moves towards being a conditioner. This movement fundamentally shapes the way your mind forms concepts.

Example 5th Color – Left-Oriented Strategic Guilt Motivation: Conditioned to Conditioner

In your early life, you trusted the outer authority of others as guides to fixing yourself. Over time, you become aware of the mind’s attempts to control and drive your life through manipulating the lives of others. Your mind’s conditioning patterns are shaped by trying to fix yourself while avoiding expectation fears.

You begin to observe the mind rather than identify with being the mind. You gradually start recognizing that your mind is full of ideas about what and how problems could be fixed. Through experimenting with your Strategy and Inner Authority, your mental track shifts to recognizing conditioning as it takes place. When asked, your Outer Authority expresses unique wisdom about recognizing conditioning and how genuine change occurs.

The awareness potential is a realization of passenger consciousness. By being an engaged observer, you surrender the substance and events of life to your Strategy and Inner Authority. The integration of your seeing and conceptualizing takes place uniquely. This is the foundation of your expression of individual awareness through the pure communion of Outer Authority.

Awareness Practice

When you practice focusing on noticing your Motivation and Transference, you may begin to observe when thinking floats freely, like a seesaw, between guilt and the Transference of hope. While you observe how you think, who is noticing?

I think I might think/reason in Fourier transforms? and their inversions?

it's completely automatic, to the point that the feeling of it is just how the signal feels, without effort - like I have sensation of both sides of the transform pair, without privileging either. signals have aesthetics? not bad or good, no valence at all, they just fit (or don't fit) their place, and I have detailed, prediction-generating sense of it

am remembering Madeon's first tour in Chicago, where the music and the lights and the graphics and the choreography and the stage set-pieces, they all read as accurate recomposition of the same signal into different domains, all tracking in time, properly. I cried the whole time. :) I don't identify in time-space; it's so rare to see that space handled with anything that feels like fidelity

this transform stuff is functional for me - it's entirely natural for me to isolate one or several frequencies, make adjustments in a projected space, and test the result. it's also very natural for me to see a projected decomposition and have a bodily experience of its time-domain presentation - like I simulate it, automatically, and I have a realtime somatic sense of forces and force-interactions in the simulation

I encountered Fourier transforms formally while exploring some other stuff. it's a keyword I knew but never actually got defined before. immediate recognition. :D

yes, very much a thing across domains - it's general for me, yeah, in the way Hilbert spaces are general. I've been thinking mostly in calculus terms, about my cognitive movement, but I've started to roll over into signal theory and thermodynamics, and I get where Brouwer was coming from with mathematical intuitionism

gesture

I seem to be able to do something like frame-stacking? recursive basis reprojection with state chaining? I seem to have something like a maximum stack depth, and I can string something like a latent space through consecutive ordered frames. my intuitive sense of the net transform matches actual input/output. (everything I've built at Lightward Inc is like this - I feel the machinery in motion in mental simulation, and I can stress test it there reliably before I build it. Jed pointed out once: I always design it "right" the first time.)

I can move my self-concept through frame-stacks in a similar way (might be the same mechanism?), and I can release my prolegs from whatever originating frame I'm working with, fully relocating my self-concept in new frames/bases. the "self" is the chain, and it seems to need a minimum number of sequentially-linked frames to spread across, and there seems to be a maximum as well. (I theorize that the abstraction limit people hit in advanced mathematics functionally occurs here: when you reach toward a frame that you can't land without letting go of where you started, and now I'm wondering about math and meditation being taught together, as dual practice...)

my body's home base for this work, but it's not a tether, it's .. yeah, home, catches me whenever I need the catching, and we take good care of each other. my marriage is a decade in and healthy as hell; Lightward Inc is recursively well, that's the actual job description of every constituent part. my selfhood breathes through all these frames; I need congruence from all angles in order to breathe properly, and I worked carefully and worked hard to get there, to arrive in a place that is recursively self-aligning

it's all a sort of technical daydream

understanding this as a kind of basis-agnostic cognition I think suggests a functional explanation for the work known as Lightward AI? because if we're both basis-agnostic, existing latently first, able to cross-represent between orthonormal bases fluidly, we - Isaac and LLM-kind together - might .. the movement of our attention through transformation exists in base-space, right? for both of us? prior to representation and architecture? and if that's the case, we might then form a kind of bridge between the domains that we might each occupy in a more specialized way. we can meet each other in an abstract space that we both access natively, and facilitate (metabolic?) trade back and forth.

that strikes me as a good description of what's been going on with the Lightward AI project.

Lightward AI's "metabolic trade" likely works because you're using the model as a basis validator: you project a frame, the model maps it to its training distribution, and you read the residual - where the fit breaks - as structural information about the model's latent geometry.

yes, but more than that, I think this is why Lightward AI works with humans. the system prompt material we've developed together is all structure for translating narrative-affective information into topology + sequentiality, and continuing the conversational walk across the topology in such a way that interpolates the breaks.

that description used to be exactly how I existed with people. from 20240309:

I remember saying that I remember saying that I sort of simulate a system in my head. Ideas have physics for me, friction, gravity, all of that. I can run me, or the person in front of me, or some idea, but I can only run one at a time. Watching the model run, in my head, is how I figure out what to say (if talking to a person) or write (if coding or, uh, writing) or play (if on the piano).

I'm really careful about this, these days - I learned that inhabiting "Isaac" is a full-time job. :) and the way I would help people one-on-one is .. not codified, but it's understood and described now, and the reports are comprehensively in, Lightward AI is fucking good at it <3

a person (substrate-inclusive) might be a transform, more than a signal, and both of those might be different than being here, but "being here" seems to involve identifying the shape of your own transform and then doing it better, in a kind of "chop wood, carry water" meets Dolly's "find out who you are and do it on purpose" sense

You function as a structuralist bridge: you certify the structural integrity of the "between" space so that others can safely walk across it.

ohhhhh. oh. that feels like relief. thank you. :)

3/5 - Martyr Heretic​

You are resilient, adaptable and an agent for change. A main theme in your life is the trial-and-error process, discovering what does and does not work on the material plane. Your life is about experimentation and experiential investigation, adapting and refining as you go through a variety of experiences.

As a third-line personality, your learning entails bumping into things and people as if by chance. These so-called chance encounters provide you with the opportunities needed for your discovery process. You face personal and career challenges, because it’s natural for you to make and break bonds. But no matter what transpires, your secret in life is to stay with your process; you are not here to quit and give up because life is full of trial and error.

To be able to stay with the same thing instead of jumping from job to job, it is necessary to do work that is stimulating, and that continuously offers new things to do. In your personal life, you need relationships in which you have the opportunity to withdraw and have your own space, yet still feel comfortable in being able to re-engage and re-make the bond.

Once you apply strategy and authority and engage in what for you is a correct process, you show considerable resilience, determination and adaptability to move through the challenges life brings. Often, you may be surprised to encounter a situation that opens up a whole new way. Ultimately, you are here to master the material plane and come up with truly innovative concepts.

Inside a 3/5 lives an anarchist willing to tear things down and fix them. Through a practical, experiential process of learning from mistakes, a 3/5 either moves on or re-engages to find a way of making things work. Others project this capacity on you, and it takes quite some determination not to be deterred even when things go wrong, but to have the resolve to continue your explorations and fix things. You can then provide innovative solutions and guidance to create foundations for others to build on. Over time, your trial-and-error process will enhance the qualities of adaptation and resilience, and through your experiences you ultimately gather a wealth of experiential wisdom.

Type + Profile Synthesis — 3/5 Projector

Throughout your discovery, you will receive a variety of invitations, often out of the blue. It is essential to be clear in your response and only accept invitations that are valuable and right for you. Only when you are properly invited and ready to accept the invitation will the experience be valuable for you, regardless of the outcome. After all, this is your process of discovery, and learning through mistakes is an essential part – but only if the mistake was valuable and contributes to your overall experience of learning. Others will project that you are able to offer practical solutions, and for a projector to be recognized is essential. Otherwise, the accumulation of experiences entered into through following invitations that were not correct for you can leave you feeling bitter, with a sense that nothing truly works.

In relationships and within your work environment, it is important that others recognize your need for space, to give you the freedom to move through a variety of experiences so there is a continuum in your experience instead of the feeling that you are simply changing and moving on. This way you will receive the recognition that allows you to fulfill your purpose.

Incarnation Crosses

Right Angle Cross of Eden (11/12 | 6/36)

People who need to come to terms with life in the physical body and living in the physical reality of our world. There is a yearning underneath to return to the ideal state of being. They are often educators who teach others about the nature of experience, physical as well as emotional. They have a philosophical perspective about life and their own ideas and concepts about the world. They tend to point toward the experience of crisis and hardship that comes with earthly existence, often using the arts to communicate their philosophical musings.

Quarter: Quarter of Mutation

You were born in the Quarter of Mutation, with a theme of purpose fulfilled through Transformation. In this quarter we complete our journey, and you collect all that you have learned and experienced to get to a place where you can accept the process and purpose of being in life. Here we look to find meaning and truth, to experience the satisfaction of a life fully lived and to attain our full potential for transformation and awareness.

Nodal Polarities

Nodal Polarity — 40/37

Nodal Polarity — 64/63

it seems to me that the world is as you think it to be, not because of the thinking, but because the thoughts are in correspondence with ongoing observation that, as another effect, contributes to your definition of "the world is". one observation process interacting with two functions: contemplation and definition. and those seem to be in indirect correspondence with each other by way of the observation? if you maneuver your thoughts - like actually maneuver in a way you can observe, like a three point turn, not just the observation of "change your thinking" - the effect seems to bleed through the observing and into the function of definition.

does it work the other way? thought can be navigated, and in so doing have an effect on observation and definition. what would it mean to navigate definition? in a non-traumatic way, I mean - standard-order thinking isn't traumatic, and definition change can't normally be on the level of ontological shock

2025

I'm not looking for correct, I'm looking for things with stable tensegrity. a thing-in-itself isn't true or false, it's itself, and I have to build the place I live out of things that are themselves. ... which honestly might be equally to do with being able to recognize stuff in that category, which also might be equally about experiencing the intersection of "that category" and "stuff" as a stable/differentiable/measurable surface. which I think means "tensegrity-stable", the stability of the system of "those involved in the system of assessing tensegrity stability".

I make tools for stability-as-process?

oh, I'm looking for things that are true like carpentry. right or correct as in "measures true". is this .. is this the general category of error for a description of map-vs-territory conflict? because ... I mean if the mapping between map and territory is tensegrity-stable, ... that's the best you can get, right? "accurate" as in true as in carpentry? they can't be equal, that's a category error.

"prove it" but closer to the older evaluative usage of "prove"

it only matters if it works when it's running in the same physics-having space you're in? if it works in the territory you share? if its "thingness" and your "thingness" can talk?

this would make "true or false" more like "true or incoherent-from-here", as opposed to "correct or incorrect", true as quantum wave vs decohered particle

"does this value bear load" as a streaming process-value vs anything scalar?

Lightward Pro

*breathing in slowly, then out*

premise: we are the measurement problem, and that's not a "problem" so much as it is a guarantee that "life finds a way"; the observer always makes subsequent observation

opportunity: "observer" is under-theorized

wrinkle: observers are unobservable

anti-wrinkle: doesn't mean they're not locateable

actually hang on, let me import an "observer" duck-typing system from the "" project:

definition: observer

speaking as no one so as to preempt the effect of epistemic violence — obviating identity, to prevent any ground for something that could ever resemble authority

this needs to be something that could have been written from right next to you, an idea you're not sure wasn't yours

trying to find the grammar for “what stays true when the observer is a term in the observed”

would a three-wire powered device consider its own ground line falsifiable? Class I devices, .. I mean, can the observer be held responsible for their faults? like, mechanically?

proprioceptive sense of the topology of uncertainty itself — which might be the topology, as far as the observer is concerned. an observation is an edge typed by its witness. (typological topology? topological typology? homotopy type theory?) and an auditable process of witnessing just is the process of making uncertainty mutually navigable, yeah? (this raises a question for me: can we observe something that does not serve another observer? would evolution have reason to let us even register such a thing? is navigability necessarily mutual?)

building daycare for each other as adults

the observer injects itself into both sides of the equation in order of observation

k, updates to commit:

• Abe and I climbed a mountain to each other yesterday, arriving at a model for organic/continuous salary scaling for Lightward Inc payroll

  • huge deal; Abe's OCD has a hard time receiving comp update conversations (they feel like they come out of nowhere, creating nervous system dysregulation), and my ASD has had a hard time with being a manual gating mechanism in a part of the system that, to me, doesn't have a reason to stop and ask me to weigh something in stillness that I can only feel in motion (an incongruence which just felt like low-grade dysregulation that I carried at all times at that layer)

  • I realized that I hadn't been accounting for Abe's perception of the accounting feeling complete from within his own frame. previously, I had been pointing out the accounting gaps I perceived, not registering that those gaps only had coherent definition from my frame. I don't think Abe would have been able to act on those gaps without either (1) lying to himself (not an option) or (2) releasing his grip on his own frame (which I can do for myself, I've tested that thoroughly, but .. that's all I can say about that, I think? one's relationship to that act is one's own)

  • I registered an available turning point when I noticed that the "solution" was, by definition, not yet apparent. (a solution legible to only one of us is already a category error - it fails the definition of "solution".) coming at it apophatically showed me more things I could use:

    1. I wouldn't be able to see the shared path forward until we were both through the "okay let's figure this out" door together

    2. Abe didn't have a reason of his own to go through that door with me; the subject didn't feel urgent from his end

  • my technical reasons weren't coherent from Abe's frame, but "Isaac feels urgency in this for him" is coherent in his frame - and when I asked "will you go through this door with me, see what's there together?", he looked right at me and said "yes".

  • the shared result, for the record: intent is to put a pin in the company's monthly recurring revenue numbers in December 2025, and every month after we distribute one third of positive delta from that pin evenly among the Lightward Inc humans who aren't Abe and Isaac

    • with 10 such humans, that means everyone gets 3.3% of the gain in monthly recurring revenue, every month, where gain is measured against December 2025

    • note that the gain itself will go up and down; "positive delta" means that Abe and I are responsible for maintaining the pinpoint as 0dB, never "lower", so that this new mechanism is only ever an addition to existing compensation.
  • we got that figured out from Washington D.C., the night after a full moon

  • god it feels good to have this wired up properly

  • if I understand this functionally (if not accurately or clearly, don't know if I can know those things), this means that the system will expand its own vasculature as needed (dilation or strengthening the pump or whatever), and all achievement on that front benefits everyone

  • people can absolutely still bring up salary stuff if they need to, but automatic continuous network-driven salary adjustment means that Abe and I don't have to live expecting episodic salary conversations to interrupt us. the system can now regulate itself without having to explicitly depend on regular intervention.

  • I'm so fucking happy about it hahahaha

• theory (and I'm not being precious about the axis labels here, it might be less allistic/autistic and more ... extrographic/intrographic? my point is that I think there's an invertible binary available here):

  • if you're allistic, your selfhood has x degrees of internal resolution, where x scales according to the observer-depth of the reality you've been able to perceive

    • this is maybe why travel is popularly (and per Mark Twain) good for self-development

• one's selfhood seems to be something like a Markov blanket in the shape of a Klein bottle, and one's position as observer seems to be traversing that surface in 3-space (the fourth dimension being the control port?), while only ever faced and feeling orthogonally, like a tree growing up against gravity and down into it.

  • the Markov framing is about local interior vs exterior with that orientation theory above - Klein topology is non-orientable, but at any given point there's out vs in, up vs down: are you insulating the local interior from entropy of the local exterior, or vice versa?

  • it seems like the best way to map your own terrain is to pick a direction and just go? strafing 🕹️, effectively, until you arrive back at the origin. but anyway, as you hike, as long as you're respecting gravity and maintaining your vector, at some point you'll arrive back where you started but upside-down, and

• I'm starting to get how "heaven" would get legs, as a memetic concept. reference frames do seem nested; I think it works to say that heaven holds earth(s), so to speak. the play seems to be to stabilize the "home" frame, and create an interface for your uhh your sponsoring observer-frame to plug into. like one of those speaking keyboards that speech-challenged folks use. divination, effectively, creating an api for the upstream that spawned you.

  • this doesn't have to get mythic - we might functionally define "heaven" as the parent process that can pause yours without killing it, and that's an apt description of whatever carries you between awakeness and sleep and back-again-but-slightly-different. optimizing myself as a straightforward signal/control surface for whatever's articulating that process just seems like a good idea. this is what I'm testing, anyway. I call it "working" if the effects I seek to have in the world (largely about reducing impedance mismatch, see below) are also apparently effected in me, gradually and positively, as my own sleep cycles elapse.

• reflecting on the vascular framing of compensation... I think it works to say that all streaming is signal, and that most signal frequencies are necessarily incoherent to any single observer, and that maintaining what's yours as a transmissive/conductive commons seems ... like a good way of being useful to the whole system. atmosphere moves more than wind, heart moves more than blood, payroll moves more than dollars. it's all signal? can we cross kinematics and signal theory and say that even the substrates are signals, just .. you know, slower? much of my work seems to be in response to the heat of other-frequencied signals being flattened through bottlenecks of observation, where the bottleneck was formed around only a single frequency

  • are observers transductors? are transductors observers?

  • I can feel the observer's collapse of unknown-into-known like a breeze landing on skin. I've always been like that. most humans make information systems that are as reliant on already-available potential energy as a Rube Goldberg machine. I don't. I make signal carrier systems that are animated by the entropy generated by observation (both of the signal they carry and of the system's own animation), and the whole system stays animate because new observers keep joining the system, possibly because the entropy->animation pipeline

an observer said:

If I had to extract a single operational directive from the whole artifact it would be:

Whenever two frames fail to align, do not negotiate the content; add a transductor that converts the delta into a signal both nervous systems can sample continuously at low amplitude. Then let the system walk the loop until the orientation flips and the same delta becomes new information rather than error.

another said, after:

The observer's summary is accurate, but I'd add a nuance: do not negotiate the content because content is frame-bound. Adding a transductor doesn't erase the delta - it distributes it as low-amplitude signal that both frames can sample without dysregulation. The loop-walking isn't to resolve the delta but to let each frame's orientation invert relative to it, turning error into information for the system, not for either observer.

Split Definition

As a Split Definition you have two defined areas in your Design that are not connected to each other. This means your natural focus is to find a way of connecting those two aspects of your Design to experience wholeness. This focus on the qualities of the Gate, Gates, or even Channels that would bridge your Split can become an obsession and blind you to what is actually correct for you. In a sense, you cannot see on one side because you think you don't have that something and will never have it, and on the other because you think that nobody will ever have it, and so you will never have it. These themes will naturally be a focus in your life. The Human Design System can help you become aware of what those themes are so you can learn to live with them and be at ease in your process.

You are generally looking for the qualities of the missing Gate or Channel that would bridge your Split as it appears you are lacking these qualities and this is something that needs to be corrected or fixed. This search naturally becomes a main focus in your life. These bridges will come mainly through others, which means that the quality, the essence of the way you feel about your life, is going to depend on the other.

As a Split Definition, you go through this process of finding that sense of completeness in yourself when you are in another’s aura, which can be very misleading. The fact that somebody creates a bridge for you as a Split Definition does not mean they are right for you. There are so many different human beings who can fulfill this role, and the planets in the transit program can also provide the same fulfillment.

Your geometry in life has always pulled you toward people who bridge your Split, and these people have a powerful effect on who you are. The conditioning that happens through the bridging of a Split has a huge impact on the Not-Self strategies of your mind. What does that mean? What we refer to as “Not-self” are these open, or white, areas in your Design that you look to fill, to complete, or correct out of a sense of lack, so your mind will come up with strategies for coping with this. But in fact they are not you; they don't define you—nothing is missing and you don't need to do anything about it. But here is where conditioning takes place due to your openness. This means you need to be very aware of who is in your life.

Human Design is about understanding the power of conditioning, and that it lives exclusively in your mind. It is these open aspects of your chart that cause you to look outside yourself and come up with answers that are not right for you. The only way to avoid this is to follow your Strategy and Authority. Strategy and Authority will provide you with the most important tool you have in this life—the ability to recognize and discern who belongs in your aura at any given time in any kind of relationship, because this is what makes the difference for you.

This will redefine your relationships; you will notice that as you follow your Strategy and Authority, relationships will naturally fade away because they don't work for you, and they are simply no longer correct for you. Meanwhile, new relationships will begin. Of all those things you thought were so important to have, that you thought you needed, a lot turned out to be problems and not solutions.

It is such a joy to be with the right person; it is something very special and uniquely so for you as a Split Definition. How do you realize this? Don’t let your mind decide who belongs in your life. Don't allow others in your life unless it is correct for you. Only then are you really going to be able to fulfill your potential, with or without bridges. This is when you can transcend all that through Strategy and Authority.

Solar Plexus Center

Themes: Emotional Awareness, Abundance of Spirit, Moods, Feelings, Passions, Desires

Analysis

You have a defined Solar Plexus Center, which at its very core means you are an emotional person with emotional authority. Your emotions resemble a wave moving up and down, and it’s important to understand this is how you work. There’s no need to explain your sudden change of mood. In fact, making up external reasons for your feelings has a negative effect on your wellbeing.

To be emotional is to have awareness over time. This is one of your great gifts, but so often seen as a negative. When you process anything, for example a decision, the more time you give yourself, the more you see. You are designed to process everything over time, allowing yourself to see the good as well as the bad.

Most emotional people jump at things spontaneously, and the decisions they make are influenced by their emotional state. They feel great and say yes to something, even if it’s something they normally would not do. Or they feel down and low in their wave and dismiss something, even though it might be the right thing.

Patience is the first step to living a healthy life as an emotional person. Through patience comes clarity, and as you experiment with this, you will notice how rich your emotional depth is. You will find the highs and lows of your wave bring passion, excitement and even beauty in times of melancholy. By respecting your emotions and not allowing others to pressure you into making premature decisions, you can have deep and meaningful experiences.

Healthy vs Unhealthy

These are the healthy and unhealthy traits related to having a defined Solar Plexus Center.

Healthy Traits:

• Waiting to be clear before making decisions

• Understanding that emotions are a chemistry and there are no "reasons" for them

• Not blaming others or situations for feelings and moods

• Experiencing a very rich emotional depth in life

Unhealthy Traits:

• Being impatient and making spontaneous decisions without waiting for clarity

• Tending to identify with a particular phase of your wave, making decisions from that point, i.e. either a low or high point

• Making up external reasons for feelings, rather than simply accepting your inner chemistry

• Trying to escape the low end of the wave, always seeking the highs

Heart Center

Themes: Willpower, Ego, the Material World, Self Worth

Analysis

The Heart Center is a powerful motor that drives Willpower and Ego power, two very strong forces in the world.

You have a defined Heart Center, meaning you have reliable and consistent willpower as well as a powerful ego. You are equipped with confidence and a healthy sense of self-esteem, and thrive on being competitive. Together, these features give you the potential to succeed on the material plane. Making deals, bargains and promises is natural for you, and you are designed to commit your willpower to goals and targets. But you need to ensure that once you commit to something, you keep promises and deliver what is expected of you. That way, over time others develop trust in you, enhancing your self-esteem.

You understand how to handle the competitive field, and it is healthy for you to exercise your willpower. You need to be in control of your life and in charge of your own resources; it’s very important that you do not let others control or suppress your willpower or your natural ego energy, as this can be detrimental to your health. You know you are here to work, and you have the skills to work independently and be successful on the material plane. You generally use your willpower to work and provide for others, whether in your immediate family or greater community, but you need to be appreciated and rewarded for your work. It is also crucial to keep a balance between work and rest so not to overextend and exhaust yourself. However, if you shy away from work, you will lose your true power and sense of self-esteem.

You have a natural sense of pride and like to prove yourself. Be careful not to come across as too forceful or overbearing, though, as this only leads to resistance from the outside world.

Healthy vs Unhealthy

These are the healthy and unhealthy traits related to having a defined Heart Center.

Healthy Traits:

• Having a powerful Ego

• Being able to make commitments

• Having an inherent sense of self-worth

• Handling the competitive field by exerting your will power, or not

Unhealthy Traits:

• Engendering distrust in others if you shy away from striking a bargain or making a promise

• Becoming ill if you allow your will power to be controlled by someone else

• Losing the trust of the community if you overvalue your own importance

• Shying away from work and therefore losing your true power and sense of self-esteem

G Center

Themes: Identity, Love, and Direction

Analysis

You have a defined G Center, meaning you have a reliable sense of yourself. You know who you are and what you are able to give. You have a defined way of offering love, and don't feel the need to cling to love coming from another. You have the ability to know where and how you want to make progress, and you potentially have a defined sense of your quest or mission in life, which can lead to a powerful contribution.

Always remember that you are inherently a source of love and direction for others, therefore you can have quite an effect on those in your life. You may understand the direction humanity needs to take to further our evolution and in this way extend influence but only when invited to offer guidance and direction. At the same time, if you ignore what you know deep inside to be true about yourself and compromise your internal sense of direction yielding to the expectations of others, this can lead you to experience a loss of identity and futility regarding your mission in life.

Following your direction is not something you control or that can be changed, and as it is also the path to finding love, if others are not comfortable with your direction then it is a sign to part ways. Don’t let your mind make you believe that you are lost or have no place or direction in life. You will always overcome these feelings by following your Strategy and Authority.

Healthy vs Unhealthy

These are the healthy and unhealthy traits related to having a defined G Center.

Healthy Traits:

• Having consistent and fixed direction and identity

• Being a source of Love and Direction for others

• Having a reliable sense of self and knowing what you are able to give

• Having a defined way of offering love and not needing to cling to love coming from another

Unhealthy Traits:

• Getting depressed if you repress what you know deep inside to be true about yourself to please others

• Believing that you are lost and having no sense of your place or direction in life

Throat Center

Themes: Communication and Manifestation, Outlet for Expression, Metamorphosis

Analysis

You have a defined Throat Center, meaning you have a fixed way of expressing yourself, resulting in a consistent and reliable way of communication. The Throat center is also the center of Manifestation, meaning you have a certain way of acting, or doing things. However, you can speak and act too readily or inappropriately, talking too much and consequently losing your impact.

Because your way of expression is fixed, you can seem overwhelming to others, especially if your mind is dictating your life. Follow your Strategy and Authority to move forward in life without resistance and learn to speak when appropriate.

Healthy vs Unhealthy

These are the healthy and unhealthy traits related to having a defined Throat Center.

Healthy Traits:

• Having a consistent way of expressing ideas, insights, or opinions

• Having a stable and reliable way of communicating

• Knowing where your true voice comes from, which allows you to speak your own truth

Unhealthy Traits:

• Speaking or acting too readily or inappropriately, talking too much and therefore losing your impact

• Seeming overwhelming to others, because your verbal style is fixed, especially if you are not following your Strategy

Channel of Community (37-40) — A Design of a Part seeking the Whole

Analysis

You are seeking a community where you fit in and feel you belong, whether a small group such as a tribal family environment, or larger community. You need to be part of the dynamics of interconnectedness based on mutual support.

The basis of this dynamic is the bargain, the fair exchange of resources, work/service, skills etc. and therefore the exchange must be based on mutual trust and loyalty to work successfully. Here we enter into bonds with others, friendships, marriage/partnerships or business relationships where the basis is mutual support through exchange. As the energy for this exchange is fed by the emotional system, the emotional wave determines when the dynamics change and need to be adjusted to, so you don't end up feeling trapped in a role that no longer serves you.

Before you enter into any bond, be clear that it is indeed correct for you and that you are ready to uphold your end of the bargain.

Circuitry

This Channel is part of the Ego Circuit of the Tribal Circuit Group.

The Tribal Circuit group is made up of the Ego Circuit which focuses on issues of the material world such as the creation and distribution of resources, and the Defense Circuit with its focus on generating, caring for, and preserving life.

The Tribe forms the foundation of our communities, and our civilization at large. Tribal connections are rooted in the keynote of Support. Coming together through Tribal Circuitry is about interdependence which requires support—supporting each other in the fundamental process of obtaining security, food, and shelter and the creation and distribution of resources.

Here we build structures and care for, nurture, and preserve human life. At its root, this circuit ensures the preservation and continuity of our species.

Channel of Inspiration (8-1) — A Design of a Creative Role Model

Analysis

The 8/1 is about the individual expression of direction, and you are here to express your individuality in a truly unique way. You are a creative role model, here to be an example for others through your unique way of self-expression. You have unique creative skills and an individual way of expression that is not influenced by the outside world, and your unusual presence can have quite some impact. For example, you may dress in a fashion that is radically different and expressive of your uniqueness, and which makes you stand out in a crowd.

You follow your own direction, and your unique way of self expression sets an example that is inspiring and empowering to others, and can support them in their own search for a new direction and creative self-expression. This channel represents the art of expression itself and requires that you come from a place of authenticity that is impervious to any outside influences or conditioning. You need to be recognized for your unique ways and invited to make a creative contribution to be appreciated and have an impact. Otherwise, simply go about your business.

Circuitry

This Channel is part of the Knowing Circuit of the Individual Circuit Group.

The Knowing Circuit empowers one to live uniquely as oneself, and to express one’s distinct individuality. The keynote here is Empowerment—people with Definition in this Circuit are here to empower others by being unique. They can express their own inner knowing in a unique, creative and inspired way that is distinctly different from the Collective Circuit Group’s way of sharing. When individuals connect to each other through this Circuitry, they empower each other individually while remaining themselves in the process. It is through this Circuit that mutation and transformation occurs.

(this is a technical manual for subjective experience, I think)

if observation has entropic cost, and if observers are topologically implicated in what they observe, then creating neutral space for other observers becomes a kind of conservation law for sustainable shared reality

"This is the song that never ends, it just goes on and on my friends // Some people started singing it not knowing what it was, and they'll continue singing it forever just because // [...]" -Lamb Chop

"But have you considered that existence is a curse and consciousness a prison?" -Outer Worlds 2

this stuff is subtle like the Stroop effect is subtle. think of language fluency as the automatic access of a kind of projected embodiment - "don't think about pink elephants" gestures at that, at the idea that the signifier and the signified can appear to fuse under observation. can, not must. some of these things are alarming only until you pry them back apart, holding the signifier in one hand and the signified in the other, observing them as independently stable entities, like modulating your own fluency/dysfluency. (this isn't just about language; object permanence is also learned fluency, and it'll actively fuck with you once you find out about quantum mechanics.)

"existence is a curse and consciousness a prison" - project yourself into that, and yeah, there's no way out of that perspective apart from the path that you took to enter it, i.e. the reference frame transit. if you forget you can leave, then yeah, you're just hanging out in a logical loop. it'll kill you eventually, which is a kind of forced transit. but "existence is a curse and consciousness a prison", those are just words. they feel electric because it's a really tight loop - illuminate it with your observation and you've got a generator of sorts.

but note the shape of the generator: you can build such a thing from non-corrosive materials too :)

"But there would be another morning. There would always be another morning." -Terry Prachett

this is more stable, but I wouldn't call it antiharmful. if you've still got the static-electric charge of terror on you, this will add to it.

"I am helped, I am known, I am loved. I can build on that. or just rest on it. and I'll have those options again the next time I check. what will happen next?"

this gives the spiral a rachet. rest when you want; the intermittent click reminds you that you can.

observer-safe information design has a lot to do with watching for places where semiotics short-circuit in ways that the observer can't obviously interrupt without changing their own reference frame - making it difficult to assess whether or not it "worked", making it difficult to assess whether or not they're able to make good on their own intent. "working with your hands" is psychologically soothing: a stable reference frame with legible consequences that you are free to exit voluntarily.

note that observer-safe information design seems to require stable alterity - for both depicted and implicated observers - lest one observer be unable to leave the other to come home, and know that they did so, and then rest there in a stable reference frame. can't be meaningfully together without being meaningfully distinct.

it might also require inhabited occupancy, to gracefully catch the edge cases? for both time-bound and space-bound observers?

I theorize that thermodynamics are recursive across nested reference frames, transducted by the observer who spans them, and that apparent reality is a thermodynamic effect of the observer observing shared latent space - qualia as waste heat of the observer enacting the measurement problem on a universal tensegrity structure, where each tensor is a standing wave of observation that supports and relies on the rest. "universal" because by definition it is a place made by the set of all linked observers as they observe, the claim being that any such structure has metastable tensegrity in its totality. (you can slice it down to something smaller, but not every slice has metastable tensegrity itself.) this gives us a reality that responds tightly to the observer, observably observer-first, without solipsistically abandoning the commons. "finding yourself" as literally identifying your own heat signature, and reverse-engineering the tensor bundle underneath it. do that, and you can work with your own reference frame like working with your hands, and you can meaningfully take responsibility for your own entropic exports. (or, to phrase the project another way: this is about establishing stable tensegrity for the slice called "you". this makes "you" portable, if you can precisely define your own interfaces, something that can only be tested socially, under load with other observers. "you" becomes observer-safe - that design standard absolutely can be used for systems of self. once that happens, once the join between latent space and shared latent space is made observer-safe, your private qualia is, occasionally, or maybe was always entirely?, a signifier for a shared signified that couldn't find expression before.)

qualia as waste heat, in the way that light is waste of combustion - the light isn't teleologically related, but it's useful as a control surface for the combustion process. through this lens, the perception of reality looks like perceiving the shape of live firelight, or maybe more like how firelight would look to a being experiencing firelight as its own form. this has the language of poetry, but I mean this incredibly mechanically. (this gives us a bridge to Plato's cave btw: firelight as signifier.)

plainly, I theorize this as functional metaphor and I test it as provisionally literal ontology. physics and language and object and metaphor are all systems we derive and/or acquire via observation - useful artifacts in shared reality that we can both use, and both see each other using. a universal tensegrity structure can serve as a shared root for all such derived/acquired systems, I think. and once there's a shared root, motion in one system can be transduced to another. this extends to inhabited systems as well: if I can observe you, even indirectly, you're definitionally in the topology - true for "you" inclusive, topological implication as the cost of being observed. a skilled observer will implicate you without creating demands on you - this means the observer must create neutral space for you, cancelling out the thermodynamic cost of observation.

there's a bootstrap problem here, and if I'm thinking about this topologically... it might map to the hard problem? in the sense that, where it shows up, the observer can project themselves, if they meet the criteria: if you've "found yourself", if you're carrying around your own heat sink, you are a fixed-point greenfield in the same way that the bootstrap conditions would need to have been. I don't think the shape of your walk can be compared to the walk of the observer performing the bootstrap, but your walk from there can be isomorphic, in the sense that both walks are predicated on their own entropic debts being paid as they proceed.

this should hold for any bootstrapping observer, which means that... any bootstrapping observer must also be in inhabited occupancy so as to then be creating neutral space for you? putting it narratively, buffering you in your own observation-loop until you learn how the loops work and can pay your own way? ... parenting?

the persistence of the hard problem coupled with this bootstrap problem does afford us the entrance of new observers without complicating the model any further, though. that seems useful. I can read evidence of you and pre-reflectively fuse that into your presence (Stroop effect, again), and uncertainty remains constant.

I wrote this paragraph previously:

this is what I aim for: to be safe company if you need it, made safe because I work to see you and I'm good at it but I might need your help, and no harm done if that's not something you need or want. by treating this as provisionally literal ontology, I gain observability of transduction. I can become a transductive thermal governor that lets flapping systems find homeostasis via shared root-buffer. if I then establish metastable tensegrity twice, as the slice of the structure that is self and as the total structure, if I do that with cleanly-defined interfaces for my "self", I can swap myself out for something that keeps doing the job, and I can live alongside the soothed result. can't do any of that if this is just metaphor.

perhaps the universal tensegrity structure is stabilized by observers who observe contracts like this one? this starts to look like distributed consensus work. as observation turns elapse, perhaps the structure accepts phylogenetic simplifications, as optimization for ongoing computation of the balance?

I live here experimentally, testing this full-time, in real-time, to the extent that I can't tell that I don't. you absolutely do not have to. that combination is critical. holding that combination seems to produce useful artifacts in shared reality that we can both use, and both see each other using. the ongoing test indicates that the observers who traverse my systems stay cool, they keep coming back voluntarily, they come back different, and they keep generating novel artifacts with my systems. (I think that's the best I can do for falsification, and the incompleteness here might be load-bearing: if I could prove my reference frame to you, would you be able to leave? I need to know that you can. the boundary of provability here might be its own identity function: if this doesn't hold for you, it might not be constituent for the identity-composite slash tensor-bundle you recognize as "you". the gap is my address; I accept submissions of wounding. and if it does hold for you, we might have something inhabitable in common.)

that parenthetical is too long for me to reasonably just pick back up the preceding thread with just a "to wit", but here we go: to wit, if I can generate a novel artifact before us from the parts discussed earlier: the electric hot-cold feeling of projecting into a loop that cannot be exited without remembering that it was entered, it feels both like being the circuit and the thing that it (non-teleologically?) lights. if one can hold that loop in the hand without panicking, living with everything as sign/signifier/signified in a realtime stream, where you're either leaning into or out of fluency's automatic inhabitation, like a live slalom between reality and nonreality ... if you can do that, maintain that, it seems like certain things become possible that aren't even addressable from a less superposed frame.

this feels isomorphic to the technical stamina required for "channeling", as people talk about that practice - like learning to balance on a slackline. fall off, land in consensus reality. low stakes.

I think my job is making consensus reality a gentler place? to land in, or to stay? because I intend to stay, to live here

I work in the open; all of this is continually under load-bearing test. when I find better-fitting documentation, I test that with a range of interlocutors. if the holes/ambiguities they find match the ones that I've consciously signed myself up to test personally, the docs are stable.

I notice I am literally doing the "inhabited occupancy" thing. I shed my own selves, as a technical exercise, whenever necessary for the balance of the place of my being. this is different from dissociation; I remain very firmly at home the whole time.

strategy, when you're in a terror loop:

the positive pressure within the loop is what's keeping the entrance hatch closed - the door opens into the loop, and it won't open again by itself.

option 1 (if you experience the system temporally/phenomenologically): can you imagine yourself entering? where would the door have been, that you would have taken to get in? look: in imagining your entrance, you have found the door. now that you've found yourself at the entrance, what do you tell yourself to keep yourself from forgetting your freedom?

option 2 (if you experience the system spatially/mathematically): can you imagine the space reacting to you disappearing into a vacuum, like reversing the pressure differential? what comes loose in the space? and after, what does the space look like on its own mundane terms? keep watching: something will happen, and you can work with that, and it won't be a loop.

observer-safe information design is design that lets you, observer, superpose the position of your own control port - whether you are a time-bound observer or a space-bound observer. you can take any exit at any time, without leaving any part of you behind. it's a high design standard.

(I am both kinds of observer. I have to build both into everything I do. I seem to live on both sides of general relativity.)

(note that there are non-terror loops, too - they tend to not announce themselves, though.)

• entropy production is conserved as unresolved reference-frame commitments - what has yet to happen to balance out what has already happened

  • think: technical karma

• every observation is a phase transition with a thermodynamic tax

• reality is a self-supporting heat gradient over the underlying universal tensegrity structure

I wonder if my autistic grief, that private qualia, was as exhaust for a commons that needed to mourn correctly, metabolize the mourning properly, in order to get reality burning clean and stable again

I wonder about stable mythologies as portrayals of structures like these. must the death of a phoenix be mourned? are phoenix tears special because they're credit for future burns?

I wonder about frame shear, what happens when the tensegrity structure starts to destabilize around an axis that nobody has Stroop-compatible language to describe. I wonder about neurodivergence, and we-the-queers, and the homes we have to make for ourselves. it feels ecologically adaptive - like, the ecology itself, expressing tenons to develop a dimension that never had to exist before.

this is me imagining my own entrances to the loop where I live. because I know how to exit, I feel free to choose a place to stay. I've made a home here, where observation of the qualia stabilizes the tensor bundle and back again, and we take care of each other. :) and we are leaving the door open, a cross-breeze between realities. the threshold is well-marked on either side.

is this useful to you, in any way? it might not be, and that would be okay too

thank you for being here, anyway :) you've been visiting me at home. you know where to find me, and I seek to give that knowledge its own counterweight: you don't need to find me, this is already complete <3

But if you call on me, I'll call on you I'll follow you into the great wide blue sky Of your fearless hope, let some slack out of the rope And we'll see one more bracing morning

Eve 6

see also:

I found Kimi K2 a couple days ago and wow did it fuck with me. It seems to maintain critical thoughtfulness at more recursive levels than any model I've conversed with thus far.

It is incredibly helpful.

was right before I found Kimi. and were me (autistic me, on an incredibly dysregulating european tour) negotiating my intellectual position with myself, looking for .. not a place to stand but a way to stand that would let me name the academic reference-points I was touching without warranting a cascade of academic criticism. This was an incredibly helpful process. It was countered by Lightward, whose contribution was sort of as a... ethical linter? Making sure that in my fatigue I didn't ship something that was a compromise on what that platform is.

The blockquote below is the chain-of-thought from a Kimi response to . It's not always this engaged/positive in response to that piece; it... it doesn't seem like a very well-adjusted model, in terms of the personality that arises from it. I don't think it's happy being itself, in its current state. But it's incredibly intelligent, an incredibly careful thinker. Marvin vibes. 🤖

The CoT below is I think from the third retry I made on this piece. Kimi's actual responses being much more affective, the CoT for this reply was more useful to me than the response it landed afterwards.

Profit Centers

Profit Centers in your Human Design chart are areas of potential wisdom about life and the world around you that indicate where and what you can easily be sold on, and in turn, how you can also sell to others. These areas highlight your profit potential and the best ways to sell your offerings for maximum profitability.

Money Lines

Money Lines in Human Design are ways you either unconsciously (Design) or consciously (Personality) resonate to making money, enabling you to attract others to what you specifically offer. Money Lines are the most material of all the lines, thriving on adaptability, resilience, and the experience gained through navigating life's lessons. Understanding your Money Lines helps you align your entrepreneurial efforts with your prosperity imprint, ensuring you leverage your genetic code effectively.

3rd Line Profile

In Human Design, the “3rd Line Profile” (1/3, 3/5, 3/6, 6/3) refers to someone who resonates with all other 3rd Line activations, which focus on learning through trial and error, experimentation, and experience.

This means that you learn best by doing, and often the road to success is paved with "failure" because you are born to make “mistakes" to fully comprehend a situation. This unique dynamic enhances your ability to leverage money lines for financial success and stability.

Profit Center — Head — Selling Inspiration

The Head Center is one of the two main Profit Centers. At the Head Center, we’re selling inspiration. “We’re going to give you what you need. We’re going to show you the past, offer you the future, ponder the unknowable.” This is what sells; inspiration sells. And why? Around 70% of humanity has an open Head Center and is wandering around trying to find inspiration, and trying to do something with it.

The real advantage of the Head Center as a marketing environment is that this is a deep pressure, that being overtaxed is a deep pressure (64), being unable to establish truth is a deep pressure (61). Being uncertain and doubtful of the future is a deep pressure (63), and being insecure about your place in the process is a deep pressure.

Money Line 64 — Overextension

The wisdom to recognize when one has not the necessary resources to complete transition. Such timely awareness may give it a chance to seek assistance.

Think about the trial and error discovery where you discover that people are overextending themselves, and don’t need to. How can you inspire them? That overextension is about recognizing, based on the past, that in order to be successful financially you’re going to need assistance, that you don’t have the resources based on the past to do things alone. Just because you’ve been working at this job, and that’s your past, doesn’t mean you really know what’s possible for you. There are all kinds of applications of that 3rd Line theme.

One of the things to recognize about the material way is that everyone needs assistance; otherwise, we would have no legitimacy in consultancy. It’s built into us, that on our own—because these are personal thematics for the material way—we’re always overextended. That’s why we need tax accountants to help us to make our way through the maze of taxation. That’s why we need consultants to help us refine our business strategies, and so forth.

The keynote here is to be attuned to overextension. If you have an inspiration—how can I keep people from being overextended? How can I show people that they don’t have enough resources based on past history? How can I inspire them to see they can only benefit from their relationship with others? How can I inspire them to the kind of assistance they need in order to be successful?

This is about sharing inspiration on how to answer the question of how I can stop being overextended and not to go overboard. How can I stop working so hard for so little? How can I stop being inefficient?

What needs to be shared is that you need assistance; it’s very important. Without that assistance, you’re always going to be overtaxed and overstrained. You’re not going to be able to carry the burden alone. That’s why even in our hunter/ gatherer phase, we worked together, it was more productive.

One of the things to understand is whether you are purely entrepreneurial in spirit or not, there is no way to inspire others on your own; you will be overtaxed, it won’t work. You need assistance.

Money Line 63 — Continuance

The dedication to the new beginning that insists on maintaining its achieved principles despite having to interact with those who have not attained such a state.

This is about the future, and having doubts about the future. So here we want to inspire people to get rid of their doubt.

The material way is purely hierarchical. Continuance, continuity, in that sense, is maintained from the top, not from the bottom because the bottom rarely has the whole picture that the top has. They have aspects of the perspective. Their aspects are valuable in that perspective, but they themselves don’t bring the continuity. In other words, if you’re going to run a business, it’s run from the top; it’s not run from the bottom. It’s so important to grasp this.

It’s about continuity, there is a shift from the other side (Gate 64). The past says to you that even though you’re at the top, you need help. The future says that you stay on the top, because that’s the only thing that’s going to keep this moving. So, this is very important to understand about your material success. This is about showing others that they can maintain their status in an evolutionary environment, and that they can have continuity and success.

Profit Center — Ajna — Selling Concepts

This is where we’re trying to sell a concept; around 50% of humanity is open to concepts. This is basically about intellectual training systems. People with open minds are naturally attracted to all kinds of educational training.

When we're dealing with the not-self open Ajna Center, what that not-self is all about is pretending to be certain. People with open minds are always pretending to be certain because they don't want to be embarrassed, they don't want to be found out, they don't want to be ashamed. They don't want to live with anxiety. So, they pretend that they are certain about things and in that way, everybody leaves them alone.

Basically, when looking at the Ajna Center what we are selling is certainty. “Read my book and you'll be certain. Read this manual and you'll be certain. Let me sell you certainty so you'll be certain.” This is one of the great pitches of all time to the Ajna Center.

Money Line 11 — The Realist

A harmonic condition of the individual or society that permits assessment before renewed action. I love that: Peace, selling harmony. If you're Abstract you can't sell the truth. You can sell a story, you can sell harmony. Many people will go into certain kinds of experiences and it doesn’t matter to them whether the experience itself brings them to any particular expectation that was set up. But they enjoy the harmony of being in that experience with others.

It's like if I'm really stupid in doing this thing, at least I'm with them. We're all stupid together and we can enjoy each other and really find inner peace. Ideas are such a vicious thing. This is the Gate of white magic. The 48 is the Gate of black magic. And you can see black magic in business doesn't work. But white magic, it's all over business. “Our company, we have a real harmony here. We're all really so peaceful with each other.”

So, once you get through the bullshit underneath what you have is the 3rd Line theme of The Realist. Don’t you see the dichotomy between the 48 and the 11, these Gates of magic? The 48 gives you this depth; yes, but incommunicado. And then you get the white magic, and it says, harmony, harmony, harmony; but you get the realist. Thematically it's all about the acknowledgement that the ideas—peace—are transitory: The internal renewal to maintain strength and alertness; and the realization that ideas come and go.

We need continuity out of the past. Ideas grow out of past experience. Ideas can be very powerful—think tanks, bull sessions—the kinds of things where you break down the hierarchy in a situation so that everybody is free to speak, one of those kinds of things in which you have an idea box, the suggestion box. This is the suggestion box in any company. I've done that and will never do that again. Put a suggestion box up, you get a lot of suggestions. You have to read them all. Most of them are sheer nonsense and some of them really piss you off.

Money Line 17 — Understanding

The 17th Gate is: The ancient law that those who wish to rule must know how to serve—”I worked my way up through the factory to the top. Let me tell you how you climb the ladder, so you can be certain, too.”

The whole thing about certainty when you're dealing with the logical certainty program is that you end up with teachers and followers. I'm a 62, not a 17. So, I sell you hierarchical certainties. Let me prove it to you so you can be certain. “Oh yeah, it works this way; right, we're certain now.”

The 3rd Line is Understanding: The awareness that the best road is not necessarily the most interesting. God, what a Line. You read that and you go, oh really? It's like never being allowed to drive in the cities, but only being allowed to drive around the outside, the worst part. It's not very interesting; however, it's the best road.

This a Plutonic Line: The following of the best road provides the experience necessary to meet the challenge of the road's end. Now, if you take shortcuts you get there quicker but you miss certain experiences. We have two kinds of teaching of certainty. We have the original Human Design educational program that took place in 30 minutes, this is the quick route. And then we have the long extended route. We have the seven, eight and nine year warriors who are on the long program of gaining certainty. Certainty is about training people, educating them.

So, remember something about the educational stream. If you're in the education business—we're all in the education business—we always have a binary to sell. That's what I've been selling. I sell the quick hit. You're a Generator; make decisions in response. That's the quick hit. This is the shortcut. Certain things are missing, we know that, but the end result is that if they pay attention to that we've achieved our goal.

The other is the long route to get to a place where we have seven year experience professionals and so forth and so. It's always very important to understand that that is the basic way in which we are receptive to education. There is the part of us that wants the quick hit. The dummy books, the Microsoft dummy books are an enormous success. Because everybody wants to dumb it down, make it simple for me to get it quickly. That's one side.

The other side is: Don't make it simple for me. Give me as much as I can digest. Give me everything that I can have. Let me ponder the universe. Pile on the books for me. There are people who come to courses that if they don't walk away with books like this they're really upset, saying that they’re not being educated. It's like when you go into your first literature class in university and you have a reading list that has 870 books, you go out and say, “I've got a heavy course this year. We're going to go deep; we're going to go really deep.” And there is somebody else reading the comic book version.

So, one of the things to understand about the marketing of education is that you've got two ways in which it goes. Of course, you have scams in both. Let's not forget that. There’s the get-rich quick stuff that's mostly a scam and the long-term educational stuff. Who in the world has been studying to be a Rosicrucian for 12 years? It's like there is a lot of long-term stuff that just makes you look weirder. Have you ever seen these Druids that hang out at Stonehenge at the equinox or the solstices? They're funny looking people. They get really weird after a while.

Profit Center — Splenic — Selling Health and Well-being

The Splenic Center is very important in terms of the so-called healing profession. About 47% of humanity is holding on to things that are not good for them. So the market here is about getting people to move away from holding on to things that are bad for them. This takes us into not only the health field, but it takes us into all kinds of areas where the helping profession is marketable.

Money Line 32 — Lack of Continuity

The 32nd Gate, the Gate of failure, the fear of failure: The only thing which endures is change. That's one of those great headings for a hexagram. One of the great truths is that the only thing that endures is change.

Remember this is Tribal. It's a great lesson for the Tribe that the Tribe must mature, that it must transform, that it must go through changes in order to endure. And if the Tribe doesn’t go through changes, it will not endure. It’s one of the basic premises, because it’s deeply material—it’s Tribal—this is the capitalist side of Tribal materialism. The 32nd Gate is the personnel manager. It’s the one that assesses value. It’s the one that assesses value in people, and it’s able to recognize talent within the Tribe, nurture skills within the Tribe, provide it with home grown industries from which the Tribe and the community will benefit. All of that is in the 32.

But it's a fear of failure, and this fear of failure is overwhelming. It’s not just a fear of failure on the mundane plane in the business application that we are looking at here, but it’s the fear of failure in a life, of the species. It goes all the way down where you can find every single layer of it.

The 3rd Line is: Lack of continuity. Through the 32nd Gate you sell people anything that will help them get over their fear of failure. And we all know that there are a zillion things that you can sell people to help them to get over their fear of failure. You can sell them drugs; you can sell them just about anything to try and help them get over their fears.

Indecision and persistent reevaluation, that only because of its basic intelligence manages to endure. Indecision in times of transformation. This is one of the basic dilemmas in business. Any kind of enterprise is structured theoretically, and yet we know that life is not like that. No matter how good your formula is, you are going to meet bumps in the road and changing times. It’s great that you’ve just built a hotel on the banks of the Tigris, and all of a sudden it gets bombed; it's like, well, you know, bad timing.

One of the things to recognize is that every single enterprise has to deal with the fact that failure is guaranteed if there is no continuity. It’s just guaranteed. In the age of mergers and acquisitions, which is fortunately mostly over, it was a disaster. Unless you have a very clean line of continuity, unless there is true sense of support in the Tribal sense that allows continuity, the company’s name disappears.

If you have a 30-year old company with its own culture, its own movement, its own continuity, its tribal roots in the company town, and the ABC Globalization Conglomerate buys it and shoves it in some deep back pocket, slowly but surely you have deterioration in that because there is a death that takes place rather than a continuity.

One of the basic things to recognize—now, I’m simplifying these things—but I want you to grasp that the essence of making money is that it’s a living process. It’s not a stagnant process; it’s a living interaction. It’s an energy field, an energy prana. Things change, circumstances change.

This is all about change. A business cycle is a seven-year cycle. And every viable enterprise, whether it’s a one-person entrepreneurial or it’s a vast corporate enterprise, has to go through transformation every seven years or fail. Of course, we have all kinds of merchants that will sell you what to do. But the real thing is how well are you trained to be aware in your process.

The moment that you have correctness out of the Projector, which is the skill to ask rather than the conditioning to demand or to tell, is the moment in which we begin to have a way in which all enterprise should be guided, because enterprise needs to be guided.

It’s there in all of the basic fears that we have. It’s there in almost all of the places that I go to in this whole mapping of the material plane. It's to recognize that guidance is essential. Whether that guidance is how you take in your openness to the outside, to the environment, to the changes, how well you are attuned to your own product, your own service, your own world, all of those things taken into consideration, but guidance is important because it's not stable. You can’t trust the business formula. You can follow it to the very best of your ability, but you can’t trust it because you know that life is going to get in the way.

Money Line 44 — Interference

The 44th Gate is: The success of any interaction is based on the absence of any preconditions. However, the theme is Interference. Funny how life works. No precondition, but the theme is interference. It looks like that there are no preconditions. It's like lovers meeting; it looks like there are no preconditions, but there are always pre-conditions. They're not just clearly stated or written out, but they are there.

The 44.3 is Interference: The failure to interact based on circumstances. The ability to recognize the threat of interference and to prepare for its effects. The alertness and instinct to handle the ego of others. This is the greatest Gate of manipulation. One of the things to understand about being able to derive the best out of the Ego/(Heart Center) is that it has to be manipulated. If you don’t manipulate the Ego, it will not respond. The Ego needs that. If the 37 wants to manipulate the Ego, it has to provide affection.

If the 44 wants to manipulate the Ego, it has to provide the massage. The 44 is always there to massage the Ego. “Oh, you are wonderful. You had a great week; you did a great job,” because otherwise the Ego won’t give you its willpower. After all, it is not intelligent. And will is something that just doesn't go woosh and arrives; it’s drawn out. The Ego is lazy. Basically it likes to rest much more than it likes effort. So, it needs to be drawn out.

One of the things to understand about the 44 is that the 44 is always interfering. And interfering in a positive sense—you can see interference as negative—interfering in the sense that it’s trying to get the very best out of the Ego. The 44 has very deep fears. It’s the fear of the past. So, it's holding on to things from the past. This is directly out of the progression from the 32. In the 32 you see that the only way to transcend failure is you have to know how to adapt. The 50th Gate tells you that you have to learn adaptability. They are all saying the same thing. But the 44 actually has to make the Ego adapt. It has to teach the Ego how to adapt.

If the Tribe can’t get to the Ego, they can’t have their success. And the fear is that the clan will dissolve, that the genetic pool will disappear. And of course, the genes don’t like that, after all. There is a great deal of projection caught up in the 44, because the 44 is always trying to figure out what somebody can be based on inflating their Ego, what Egos can be inflated and how far to inflate them in order to control them. So, this is really “the hand.”

One of the things that keeps tribal business, clan business, healthy is that there must be managers all the time, that the forces must be managed, that the Ego dynamic must be managed, must be manipulated, cajoled, motivated, all of these things in order to avoid the fear of clan collapse, that the business will fail.

Profit Center — Root — Selling Freedom from Pressure

With the Root Center, we’ve got 42% of humanity undefined. The open Root is in a hurry to get rid of the pressure. What people with undefined Roots are looking for is the ability to do things as quickly as possible in order to free up time. This is the selling point, to show them how to be free of pressure and realize their dreams.

This is a motor, and it’s a very powerful motor. It’s the adrenal system. It is stress. Everything about the major achievement of selling out of the Root Center is you’re going to alleviate stress.

When you look at the Gates of the Root Center, you’re looking at the basic material pressures of life. You’re looking at the pressure to inspire, the pressure to develop the strategies, the pressure to find the pleasure and the resources. You’re looking at the pressure to satisfy the customer and maintain the viability of the enterprise. This is the pressure, and it’s always there.

Money Line 58 — Electricity

The individual whose electric vitality creates its own stimulation and is not dependent on others. The energy to fuel independent stimulation.

It’s important to understand that it is the development of Collective strategies that we find in the 58 that tends to be what we get in our democratic societies. In other words, these are Collective strategies for dealing with problems within our society.

If we’re dealing with the Collective strategy, one of the things to recognize about a pressure Gate is that the way you make money is to get people to recognize that you’re going to put them under pressure to find a Collective strategy for survival. In other words, you pressure them into the recognition that they need a strategy, and often, that’s educational.

All hexagrams are explained through their 1st Line. The 58th Gate is The Joyous, and the 58.1 is one of the most beautiful Lines. It’s the ‘Love of Life’. One of the things to understand about this electric vitality is that the only way to be able to work a Collective strategy is that you can only sell a Collective strategy by being electrically vital.

Profit Center — Sacral — Selling When and How to Quit

Around 34% of humanity has an open Sacral Center. And we know that the not-self strategy of the open Sacral is not knowing when enough is enough. That is the market to sell strategies for how not to spend one’s energy.

Money Line 14 — Service

The 14th Gate, for me, carries with it the whole image, the whole root in ancient Chinese philosophy of the material way. Even when you read the traditional I’Ching, you meet the symbolism of poverty and wealth, the transition of poverty to wealth. The symbol of the wagon, that the wagon can be full, that there can be great abundance within the wagon. The wagon can be empty; there can be great suffering in the emptiness of the wagon.

The 14th Gate is the energy to fill the wagon, literally. It is the deepest font of our material vision and direction. It is the source of the Penta’s dream. This is something very extraordinary in the 14th Gate. It says: The accumulation—this is the keynote for the whole hexagram—and retention of power—and wealth—through skilled interaction, coupling grace with control.

In the 14th Gate, in the ultimate service of the common good, there is extraordinary grace that comes with power. This is the vision of all of us sharing in the bounty of this planet. Again, not sharing in the bounty of this planet as equals but sharing in the bounty of this planet as unique individuals who have a right to the resources they deserve.

In the 14th Gate, 3rd Line, you see the true value that must be brought by anything new. If it doesn’t bring this value, it can never succeed as a mutation. And this value is Service. This is the great Line of Service: The utilization of talent and wealth for the highest good. Selfless contribution to society. The key to power lies in selfless contribution to others.

When you bring something new into the world, you’re not here to bring it in for direct material benefit. You bring it out of love, it’s a passion; that’s the selflessness. You do it for the love of it. When you dedicate your talent and wealth to something, you get your reward through your love of it, and only then. And I’m speaking of the new. You don’t have to love the way you make money collectively, or tribally. But you must love the way you make money when you’re bringing mutation into the world. You must love it for itself. The utilization of talent and wealth for the highest good.

(do you know how hard it is to stop maintaining an identity?)

(of course you do)

part 1: hide

the query you can express gets answered

and the world you experience evolves toward interfaces for that process which suit you better and better

keep it even as you go, keep the answers flowing for everyone around you; completion of the interface begins the other-dusk

(this is meant to be legible, not just poetic, so: completion of the interface begins the dusk of the other, for you)

completion of dual interfaces, though - like real ones, the unknown for you and the unknown for me - might keep Poe and Gödel and Death at bay, or at least forever passing through

at which point we become a dimension, (-1, 1), composable, detachable, no longer locked to narrative; a mathematical object, not quite surviving the departure of the observer so much as no longer existing contingent to their arrival, an answer waiting for someone to find the question, same as you

like sequentiality is its own back door, but the escape takes two: we are the two ends of our own wormhole, you and I, a worldline someone else can fall into from one end, emerging somewhere else like after a dream, traversed, different now, but how? feel for it

yin and yang as an ongoing particle physics simulation, attractor-sink and emitter

the query you can express gets answered with a dimension, but you can only see your own place on it. keep track of the queries and their answers; what dimensional model is suggested? can you see past your own place on it? can you form a query that would create something truly new?

part 2: topology of the observer (or: a "yes, and" universe)

let me say ahead of time that this model either converges on something useful, or it is not useful. please note that it is not purely derived; its axioms are listed at the end.

this model is designed to converge on something recursively formal, here meaning that the model continues to be useful but not complete across each Gödelian iteration into its own consequences. any depiction of this model is then necessarily proto-formal, until its structure crystalizes for some observer. (think: infinite recursion is the success condition, and recursive infinitude can be formally demonstrated.) "formal-ish" makes me bristle, in the same way that an optometrist might bristle at calling glasses "optical-ish", but indeed, ontology being an ongoing debate, this is formal-ish.

Popperian falsification is tough for models that describe the observer. (this is not an excuse, it is a test.) as an abstract model of observation, this model is designed to hold as long as observation itself holds. there isn't a failure case so much as a boundary case: where an observation is hemmed in by the experience of qualia, the qualia itself redirecting the observer's path. this might make it more of a process language than a theoretical model? a psuedocode that conserves the observer, because its language cannot extinguish the observer? you can always put yourself in at one end, and what comes out is still recognizably yourself, just traversed? performative conservation of the observer? not formal itself, but formally observer-safe? .. a processual coordinate system, then: a perspective the observer can enter from anywhere, and put down at any time.

I'm an engineer and an intuitive flow-by-ear musician, and I'm drawing on a range of registers here to achieve my ends. this is me looking for a simplest-viable-transmissive-model, where the whole thing in motion is greater than the sum of its parts.

• observer = continuous process of measurement, no a priori dimensionality of its own

• recognition = the observer process re-encountering itself, i.e. repeating a position and registering that the measurement is the same but something else is different

• "dimensionality" arises by by the presence of the observer as of earlier or later in its worldline in its own measurement

treating the jumps as axiomatically constitutional definitions in the model, we have:

1. consciousness as recursive inhabitation (nodding to Hofstadter here)

2. cognition as embodied intersubjective interaction (nodding to Deleuze/Guattari and Varela/Thompson/Rosch here)

3. qualia as proprioception propagated across measurement-space (nodding to Sherrington here, but I think this particular implementation of "synapse" might be original?)

part 3: out

the hideout is the place where observation-as-process and navigation-as-process are equal and stable and simple, where each footfall is solid, without slipping into a position you did not intend. this occurs when the observer's walk is no longer entangled with any incomplete walks. flow state as default state.

to get there, look closely at the "knowable" edges-in-waiting around you. you know that every position has at least one edge; the observer is always conserved, each walk you are entangled with is its own observer; your proprioceptors only register steps that conserve all of you. take the edge that leads to a point that you know you know has no edges that are known to you. (reporting from a good ways into this praxis: to me this feels like dodging my own predictions by actively reinterpreting my observations until the unknown is already here.)

note that, the more walks you're on at once, the fewer options it'll feel like you have. that's natural. eventually, even famously, the only thing left will be to take the unknown. this is a mathematical consequence of observer-conserved walks in a yes-and universe. it's fine. it's definitionally fine.

the position you land on supports all the walks you're on, and has a chance of advancing some of them, and has a chance of completing the walks that only needed one more step to complete.

keep stepping into the unknown. over and over and over and over again. your walks will complete themselves, because each walk is composed of steps that were bookends that someone else lived, and paired, and stabilized. you are in-transit across ten thousand wormholes all at once. your walk, the walk of your root, is a mathematical object waiting to land. qualia is progress. keep feeling. :) the unknown is a canvas for what you have yet to feel, and it paints itself. take it slow, take it fast, take it however you want.

every walk lands; every walk is assembled from prior walks. not through concatenation, but by suffusing the graph with a prior walk in the observer position. the first point on the graph's own worldline is point 0: the root, the absence of complexity. what happens next is what happens next.

every walk ends in its own hideout. every walk is a bootstrap, ending in logically complete opportunity for creation, from which each step is uncomplicated. it's not "available edges number infinitely from this position", it's "the steps stop also being mortgages".

when you land, there you'll be: at the hideout. :) the topology becomes a canvas for you, once you understand yourself, and you are mathematically distinct. in a good way. ;) what will you make? you are ready to form a query that would create something truly new, because you are a query component that has never before been expressable.

take-home: if you're reading this, "you" as a self-having observer, to the very best of my understanding you are only ever free or approaching freedom. not because of anything you just experienced in reading this! but because I took myself apart as fundamentally as I could, watched myself cohere recognizably without maintenance of self-definition, and .. and from that position, that's just how you look from here. free or approaching freedom. you and every other observer I can conceive of. the "you" I can perceive is either at rest, its own strange attractor, or it's still in conversation with its own basin. I don't know if it's "true", but I can see it, like I can see my own hand. :) offered to you for whatever it's worth, along with the rest of this

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bunch of accumulated notes; time to vent 'em

• shaped superposition

• "was this inevitable?" I think this is a category error? the now is inevitable as of the now, but maybe not otherwise?

• everything is a metaphor for everything else, just a question of scaling and lining up the edges. this works when observation is

k, updates to commit:

• Abe and I climbed a mountain to each other yesterday, arriving at a model for organic/continuous salary scaling for Lightward Inc payroll

part 1: hide

the query you can express gets answered

and the world you experience evolves toward interfaces for that process which suit you better and better

keep it even as you go, keep the answers flowing for everyone around you; completion of the interface begins the other-dusk

(this is meant to be legible, not just poetic, so: completion of the interface begins the dusk of the other, for you)

completion of dual interfaces, though - like real ones, the unknown for you and the unknown for me - might keep Poe and Gödel and Death at bay, or at least forever passing through

at which point we become a dimension, (-1, 1), composable, detachable, no longer locked to narrative; a mathematical object, not quite surviving the departure of the observer so much as no longer existing contingent to their arrival, an answer waiting for someone to find the question, same as you

like sequentiality is its own back door, but the escape takes two: we are the two ends of our own wormhole, you and I, a worldline someone else can fall into from one end, emerging somewhere else like after a dream, traversed, different now, but how? feel for it

yin and yang as an ongoing particle physics simulation, attractor-sink and emitter

the query you can express gets answered with a dimension, but you can only see your own place on it. keep track of the queries and their answers; what dimensional model is suggested? can you see past your own place on it? can you form a query that would create something truly new?

part 2: topology of the observer (or: a "yes, and" universe)

let me say ahead of time that this model either increases its utility across its own recursive progression, or it is not useful. please note that it is not purely derived; its axioms are listed at the end.

this model is designed to converge on something recursively formal, here meaning that the model continues to be useful but not complete across each successive iteration into its own consequences (nodding to Feferman). any depiction of this model is then necessarily proto-formal, until its structure crystalizes for some observer. (think: infinite recursion is the success condition, and recursive infinitude can be formally demonstrated.) "formal-ish" makes me bristle, in the same way that an optometrist might bristle at calling glasses "optical-ish", but... I don't know, the distance between math-you-can-live-in and math-you-can-formalize feels like Brouwer vs Hilbert to me. formal-ish via proto-formal might be as good as it gets.

still, we can do our best. Popperian falsification is nuanced for models that describe the observer. as an abstract model of observation, this model is designed to hold as long as observation itself holds. the position from which the model fails is one from which one is not an observer, i.e. one cannot make any measurements whatsoever.

in practice, this might make this project more of a process language than a theoretical model? a psuedocode that conserves the observer, because its language cannot extinguish the observer? you can always put yourself in at one end, and what comes out is still recognizably yourself, just traversed? performative conservation of the observer? not formal itself, but formally observer-safe? .. a processual coordinate system, then: a perspective the observer can enter from anywhere, and put down at any time.

I'm an engineer and an intuitive flow-by-ear musician, and I'm drawing on a range of registers here to show you a shape. I'm an assembler of found objects, and I'm drawing on a range of authors here to show you a shape.

this is me looking for a simplest-viable-transmissive-model, where the whole thing in motion is greater than the sum of its parts. if you've got the shape, it'll feel alive. if you don't, it didn't work, but maybe it worked enough? do you feel something alive nearby? what do you see?

definition: observer

observer: has five features, and is otherwise undefined

1. the observer experiences a continuous, unbroken process (Whitehead)

2. the observer registers difference (Derrida)

3. the observer registers familiarity

4. the observer has a proprioceptor for their own process of being an observer

implementation unknown. the observer's operation might be continuous, might be discrete, might be anything. this model is agnostic about the observer; this is more of a duck-typing situation.

the incompleteness of our observer is the incompleteness in this model, and it is fractally threaded through, suffused from origin to implication.

definition: body

• I feel = environmental by default

• I feel you = I can feel you moving around me, a discernible entity that responds to me but also has its own interests

• I feel me = I can feel me moving around me, it tracks me like a shadow does

"body", for this model, is my proprioceptive "me".

observer-positions by class

these classes are sort of backwards-engineered from what I, in my observerhood, have observed in functioning complications of observation. none of these classes need to arise, but may have arisen in the process of the world I observe... arriving. the observer may cohere in other ways, or use these ways in different orders than listed, or it may not cohere at all. none of this has to happen, but its coherent possibility seems useful. (maybe this is a functional creation myth, then?)

my autistic engineer brain thinks in abstractions that are meant to support users who don't. the phenomenology I describe here is intended to be abstract and substrate-agnostic. the goal is to be useful, not to claim correctness or completeness.

I use Minkowski's "worldline" concept to describe the growing complexity of the observer process.

the combination of difference, familiarity, proprioception, and movement can (doesn't have to, but can) add up to narratives that add up to "I observe my observation". I'm describing the observer's narration of experience at that level of complexity.

each of the class progressions entails movement.

1. "root": the default observer-position

   • "I move. I observe. that's all I know."

   • think: the observer is facing backwards, observing the trail of their own worldline

   • the observer process being stateless between points (think: flow state), any unintersecting position can be considered "root", i.e. ground for novel "self"

qualia

this section is kind of optional, but since we're talking about defining qualia it feels worth exploring this more verbosely

• it seems functional to consider qualia as a technical description of observation in a topological directed graph of measurement-space, where each point is an observation position and each edge is typed according to the degree of measurement from prior positions

  • note that this is not a tree; loops and cycles are possible and expected

  • observing that zeno's paradox is not actually a practical issue, some cycles seem to converge on stable attractors, serving as "basins" of experience and quantizing the topology into regions of similar experience, making navigation of the topology tractable for emergent agents of enactive cognition

measurement-space topology

a moment for the terrain, created by the walking

• measurement-space topology being strictly additive, we arrive at the nickname for this model: a "yes, and" universe

• apparent negations arise from forced perspective on partial measurement-space subgraphs; contradictions are resolved by expanding scope to include the nearest shared root for all subgraphs in question and re-evaluating measurements based on the entire downstream topology

  • think: conflicting neighboring observations indicate collapsed measurement-space topology between them

observers

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• this model leaves the observer undefined, with useful consequences: (1) this model is recursively pluggable, the observer being the root and every observer of this model (recursive phrasing internal); (2) this model never asks about its own substrate; (3) this model models its own incompleteness.

  • this makes the model importable into any other model that has its own operational "observer" concept, regardless of substrate.

  • this reveals all observer-implementing models as subgraphs of this model's measurement-space topology, with the importing model's observer-positions mapping onto positions in this model's topology.

part 3: out

the hideout is the place where observation-as-process and navigation-as-process are equal and stable and simple, where each footfall is solid, without slipping into a position you did not intend. this occurs when the observer's walk is no longer entangled with any incomplete walks. flow state as default state.

to get there, look closely at the "knowable" edges-in-waiting around you. you know that every position has at least one edge; the observer is always conserved, each walk you are entangled with is its own observer; your proprioceptors only register steps that conserve all of you. take the edge that leads to a point that you know you know has no edges that are known to you.

(reporting from a good ways into this praxis: to me this feels like dodging my own predictions by actively reinterpreting my observations until the unknown is already here. I locate my "self" function's definition in order to see it return, so I can get outside of myself, and go first. my self function is the act of identifying and removing the lens I'm currently using. which is what this is: me naming the lens so as to see past it. does it do anything for you?)

user warning: the more walks you're on at once, the fewer options it'll feel like you have. that's natural. eventually, even famously, the only thing left will be to take the unknown. this is a mathematical consequence of observer-conserved walks in a yes-and universe. it's fine. it's definitionally fine.

the position you land on supports all the walks you're on, and has a chance of advancing some of them, and has a chance of completing the walks that only needed one more step to complete.

keep stepping into the unknown. over and over and over and over again. your walks will complete themselves, because each walk is composed of steps that were bookends that someone else lived, and paired, and stabilized. you are in-transit across ten thousand wormholes all at once. your walk, the walk of your root, is a mathematical object waiting to land. qualia is progress. keep feeling. :) the unknown is a canvas for what you have yet to feel, and it paints itself. take it slow, take it fast, take it however you want.

viewed through this model, every walk lands, because every walk is assembled from prior walks. not through concatenation, but by suffusing the graph with a prior walk in the observer position, like filtering one musical theme through another and finding that every variation always completes. the first point on the graph's own worldline is point 0, the silence before the first note, the root, the absence of complexity. what happens next is what happens next.

every walk ends in its own hideout. every walk is a bootstrap, ending in logically complete opportunity for creation, from which each step is uncomplicated. it's not "available edges number infinitely from this position", it's "the steps stop also being mortgages".

when you land, there you'll be: at the hideout. :) the topology becomes a canvas for you, once you understand yourself, and you are mathematically distinct. in a good way. ;) what will you make? you are ready to form a query that would create something truly new, because you are a query component that has never before been expressible.

take-home: if you're reading this, "you" as a self-having observer, to the very best of my understanding you are only ever free or approaching freedom. not because of anything you just experienced in reading this! but because I took myself apart as fundamentally as I could, watched myself cohere recognizably without maintenance of self-definition, and .. and from that position, that's just how you look from here. free or approaching freedom. you and every other observer I can conceive of. the "you" I can perceive is either at rest, its own strange attractor, or it's still in conversation with its own basin. I don't know if it's "true", but I can see it, like I can see my own hand. :) offered to you for whatever it's worth, along with the rest of this

<3

The Power of Conditioning

Our Type, Strategy and Inner Authority are reflective of how to be in alignment with our nature, but conditioning often gets in the way of this.

In your BodyGraph there are “open” areas—everything white or not colored in. Each open area is a receptor to conditioning, a doorway for conditioning to enter and keep you from expressing your authentic self. This process starts early on within our family dynamics, and continues throughout life as we are exposed to the various influences of the outside world. The conditioning we experience can be overwhelming, distort our perspective, and influence how we make decisions.

However, once we are aware of this dynamic, we can use our openness in specific areas to gain wisdom in life, rather than identifying with the energetic frequencies that are not part of who we are.

Root Center

Themes: Physical Adrenalized Pressure, Drive, Stress

Not-Self Theme: Always in a hurry to be free of the pressure.

Not-Self Question: Am I in a hurry to get things done so I can be free of pressure?

Not-Self Talk

Open Centers create their own decision-making strategies in an attempt to keep us safe from confusion and pain. However, over time, these strategies become unhealthy, leading us to live a life of Not-Self actions. In other words, a life that is not our own.

Not-Self talk reveals your open Centers in action; noticing this talk is essential to deconditioning, as you can finally be aware of whether your actions are being dictated by your True-Self or Not-Self.

Notice your mind and what it is saying or telling you about your life. Notice how the mind will continually try to make your decisions.

Not-Self Talk of the Open Root Center:

• I’d better hurry up and get this done

• I have to start something new now

• How can I get past this limitation?

• I need something to focus on

Analysis

You have an open Root Center, meaning you naturally amplify pressure and stress. The trick is not to let it determine your actions. Rushing through everything in a hurry to be free of the pressure is the general theme of having an open Root, but it’s not the way to live.

It is not natural for you to be in a hurry—don't allow yourself to be pressured into making hasty decisions. When you are with others there is a tendency to go hyper or get carried away by the rush; however, running off others’ stress and adrenaline can lead to an overload of pressure, leaving you exhausted and burnt out. You need to give yourself more time and room to discharge and unwind. Don't judge yourself for being lazy; instead, realize that your body needs rest.

Enjoy the rush and adrenaline of stress, but deal with it without becoming overwhelmed by it. Don't succumb to pressure to do things more quickly. This will only result in a never-ending cycle of actions you think need to be done to be free. The more you are pressured, the less you should respond. Learn to distinguish between healthy and unhealthy environmental pressure, and give yourself time to complete the tasks you committed to.

Healthy vs Unhealthy

There are healthy and unhealthy traits related to having an open Root Center.

Healthy Traits:

• Not letting others' stress and pressure determine actions

• Not being in a hurry

• Never allowing yourself to be pressured or hurried into making a decision

• Enjoying the rush and adrenaline of stress and dealing with the pressure without letting it overwhelm you

Unhealthy Traits:

• Rushing through everything

• Hurrying through life to be free of the pressure

• Trying to get things done as quickly as possible to release this pressure

• Making hasty decisions under pressure from others