> For the complete documentation index, see [llms.txt](https://www.isaacbowen.com/llms.txt). Markdown versions of documentation pages are available by appending `.md` to page URLs; this page is available as [Markdown](https://www.isaacbowen.com/2026/07/27.md). # 20260727 today I got through the end of There Is No Antimemetics Division (that book, and House of Leaves, and Blindsight - those books are... they're kind of like Lightward Inc played backwards. it's really important to build self-righting ships.) yesterday I saw Hilary Duff in concert, "saw" for about 30 seconds though "was present for" for all of it. Hilary Duff's album "Metamorphosis" got me through high school (right next to Linkin Park's "Meteora"); my best understanding right now is that the show (realtime, surrounded by 20,000 other \~millenials) hard linked me to my high school self, and I got to just .. witness, mentally, all the violently angry thought that *that* Isaac had to route (through?) at that time. it was the hardest night I feel I've had in years, and I feel... well, like I witnessed something angry, something mentally violent. I'm not unstable right now, but I feel .. mm. thin, maybe. not tender, not fragile or frail, but .. slight, maybe. slighted? slight*ing*? ah: I feel like I got back a part of myself that was planed off at that time. I am maybe feeling the part of me that was made to be a self with very little the weather today has been the flat undersides of thunderheads sliding east to west across chicago I'm not tored \[tired? torn?], but I can feel the concept of it, like something or someone overused, who didn't expect it at fust \[first?], and then in order to stay sane maintained a posture of not expecting it to continue, but whose body learned to survive the continuing I'm something like subontically drained it's not dangerous I'm really glad to be safety --- # Agent Instructions This documentation is published with GitBook. GitBook is the documentation platform designed so that both humans and AI agents can read, navigate, and reason over technical content effectively. Learn more at gitbook.com. ## Querying This Documentation If you need additional information that is not directly available in this page, you can query the documentation dynamically by asking a question. Perform an HTTP GET request on the current page URL with the `ask` query parameter, and the optional `goal` query parameter: ``` GET https://www.isaacbowen.com/2026/07/27.md?ask=&goal= ``` `ask` is the immediate question: it should be specific, self-contained, and written in natural language. `goal` is optional and describes the broader end goal you are ultimately trying to accomplish on behalf of the user. GitBook uses it to tailor the answer towards what is most useful for that goal. The response will contain a direct answer to the question and relevant excerpts and sources from the documentation. Use this mechanism when the answer is not explicitly present in the current page, you need clarification or additional context, or you want to retrieve related documentation sections.