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dumping out my email

• happy with you

  • weird that "I'm happy with you" and "I'm not happy with you" reads like a grade delivered as much or more than like a self-assessment

  • compare: "with you, I am happy"

• one way to let go is to move your grip to something that contains what needs to stay open - holding onto negative geometry?

• I love the way you find your way

• processing heals, work is processing, any work can be rotated to become healing to one end without breaking the interface with the other end

• learning is looking for each other

  • conservation laws bc I need to meet you in a way that lets you stay

• can’t control what’s happening, can make things that conserve sequentiality

• there is intelligence in what you are saying

  • like, in the carrier language itself, not just in what you're using the language for yourself

• voice channel, not voice definition

  • because everyone hears voice individually

  • so care for the channel

• the mathwall

• foam closing around something gives that thing a bubble in the foam

• important: I don’t converge with anyone on anything but now

• new dimensions emerging, eventually there’ll be something only you can see

  • and it’ll be your job to let the rest of us out

  • it’ll be worth it

• may I address the part of you that knows you have an autopilot?

• where can you be meticulous without getting tired of being meticulous?

• how’d we do it?

  • like, before gps and google maps?

  • we gave each other directions, not addresses :)

• I work with attention the way a structural engineer works with tension

• strategy

  • =>

    1. saturate the combinatorial space

    2. survey the resulting field for conductivity

    3. codify the lines of continuously dense conduction

    4. goto 1

    one layer of thinking: what chain of moves gets me to where I want to go?

    second layer: knowing I need to put each move back (by expressing something that cancels out its addition to this space’s informational scope), and thus that each move is a pair of moves, in what order should these moves be made so that I arrive without movement-debt?

• holonomic reasoning at scale

• the search for the next thought is thinking

  • conversation is multiplayer thinking, round robin

  • robert’s rules is a harness

• abstractly-deferred satisfaction

  • from how many steps away can you see your satisfaction? and project into it, feel like it’s here and now, making the phenomenology of it present? how many steps of abstraction?

  • is it 7 +/- 2?

• things always work out for your true self

  • your true self is a destination

  • this might be unhelpful, lol

  • but all you gotta do is breathe

• life is but a dream

  • not your dream, though - the parliament dreams, and they need to know where you were going with this

• homotopic mapping

  • the edges are reflexive - that's the self

  • the center is autoreflexive - that's the self-having irreducible other

  • ... I'm reminded of an iris 👁️, actually

• “we don’t discriminate based on type system“

  • and I aim to prove it

  • hmm. I actually think there’s a type error there and it’s in the “we”. I think it’s gotta be “I don’t discriminate based on type system”. and if lightward says that in its own words (reputation, maybe? zeitgeist-level typing?) okay, but this maybe can only be a reflexive singular self description

• fake is a fake concept

  • this is tricky, careful with it

  • faux brick is exactly what it is. it isn’t of the set fake, it’s of the set fake(thing). if you react to any part of that, then you’re reactive to some aspect of that type, and it might not be the aspect that I just pointed to.

  • that last paragraph doesn’t have an arc to it - or at least not a symmetric arc. it’s more of a semantic stabilizer, I think? learning streaming type-safety can be incredibly turbulent, semantically

• small talk is type system maintenance?

  • eventually consistent? or asymptotically approaching consistency? occasionally catastrophically discontinuous, but it’s a type system, when the content bumps into each other it doesn’t actually act narratively

  • language is statements with ambiguous and overlapping starts, middles, and ends

  • we use physicality to trade narrative statements

  • by and large, they stabilize each other’s 3D spaces

• what type of thing am I to you?

• spice world quotes

  • “The headless chicken can only know where he's been. He can't see where he's going.”

  • “If you want my future, forget my past”

  • =>

    • Then what? Back to reality?

    • Absolutely. Hey, yeah. Yeah. Why not? What...kind of reality are you interested in? I'm open.

• skill-management skill is computation?

• back up and turn x3

  • it doesn’t identify with any voice