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body feels sad, like a quiet pulsing red light

"try anything twice", is how I tend to live; this was the second try at that camping situation, andddddddddd the focused social gathering for multiple days in a place where "weaving" of information is prohibido, and with it laptops and things, yeah, it was like stasis with awareness, not good, not good

respect for the place and the people, complete respect and honor

and,

I can change a lot. this, seems like not something that changes from inside the life