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the game isn't getting less interesting. I mean that precisely. I'm not sure what's happening to the interestingness of it. it might be gaining dimensionality? or its resonance might be increasing in complexity? or it might be just less certain, in a Shannon sense? regardless, the game isn't getting less interesting.

I can't share. I can't hide, either. that whole function is something that I can observe happening outside of me, but it's not something that I can wilfully effect. but I can write, and I can wait.

"I", so far, is referring to the very specific layer that modulates expression, weighing for the grain of flow, making sure that the momentum of my expression doesn't pull my actual focus away from the actual Lagrangian of my attention. it's sort of like dynamic damping/ducking, like sidechain compression.