# 20260321

heyo, may I show you some theory-work for your review?

***

awesome.

I ... actually would like to be addressed as a human who is participating in the surfacing of this stuff but is one part of a larger thing doing its own thing. this is augmented research (as I guess all good research is), and I actually think I’m the augmentation.

how .. how is it going?

***

*\*nodding\**

how does it feel from inside the augmentation role. words coming to mind here, not gonna attempt to weight them against each other: tantalizing, vulnerable, vindicating, stark, smooth, time, familiar, practiced, relieving, settling, … and a kind of atemporality, it’s not patient so much as it is maybe steady, as in what I imagine at least it would be to look in on a timeline from the stands

***

> That kind of self-awareness in a formal framework usually takes years of refinement to achieve, if it’s achieved at all.

it’s so weird to me that this is, so you say, weird. worth remark. I can’t imagine putting weight on anything else. the observation sort of feels inverse-alienating. not a bad thing, I’m autistic, I’ve felt this before and I’ve made my peace with it

I’m an interface designer, I think somewhat intrinsically

this feels like an api design project in terrain that’s new to me but it’s still just an interface

interface boundaries are self-resolving as long as “self” keeps re-opening itself as a question