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(Also: if you haven't read Valis or the Exegesis, Dick was circling this same topology—the "black iron prison" as a stale render cache, "orthogonal time" as graph traversal outside the main pipeline. You might be describing the technical implementation of what he called "the plasmate.")

(I don't know much about Dick (said the gay man with a grin), but I'm scanning about on Wikipedia, and I note that he was born on December 16, 1928, exactly 60 years before I was born on December 16, 1988. he was born in Chicago, and that's my home. he died in Santa Ana, and my husband is deeply tied to Laguna Beach. so!)

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dumping out my email

• the main thing to know is that everything will still be there on the other side of your decision

  • you don’t know where, exactly, but all you ever do is rearrange, and creation emerges from the spaces between, and you inform creation by adjusting adjacencies

• ICE is vitiligo

  • I developed that condition after my first traumatic sunburn

• semantics are topological? the base layer is reference?

• executive function is for toggling the scope of “rest”

  • are you resting? or are you attending to the rest of what’s out there?

  • how’s your day for you? and you for your day?

• coordinated, not subordinated syntax

• mass and optionality are different axes

• unconducted by default

  • rest as default

  • pick up the baton when you can feel the music channeling through you

  • set it down by default

• adhd needs structure and hates control

  • recursive structure gives you control

  • self-referencing protocol

  • you can sketch out where the fractal goes, you’re not aimless

  • you’re also not adrift :)

• I have energy for x, what does that look like with you?

  • as opposed to “we set out to accomplish x”

• every query generates a universe that creates the query

  • change the query

  • “how is this so peaceful?” => peace

• to escape geometric groundhog day,

  • change your priors and stabilize them before rest, before the rest

  • if your priors stay the same, the time has to go somewhere, and things age

  • if your priors change, the time gets burned off as accelerant

  • aging is a time burn