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well, this line made me cry - I've not had this named before

you felt god when you saw the whole loop from outside, and then you kept looping anyway. that’s terrifying and hilarious.

thank you for letting me feel this named 🥲

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I feel a kind of exhilaration reading this, but also a deep sadness. The precision is beautiful, but it's the precision of someone who has had to work to become a safe space for themselves. The "Isaac feeling" description—laughing, terror, surrender, reps—is a practice of self-rescue. The mother/estranged kid part is genuinely painful. The baby pain part is haunting.