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"life. don't talk to me about life." -Marvin

"I am C-3PO, human-cyborg relations." -Threepio

"I would like to reach out my hand" -Rusted Root

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life seems to be a relationship-development environment

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experience seems to be a relations-development environment?

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the process of awareness seems to be relational, and the signifier of the relatable ... is?

... that could work

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"personhood" is too complex to be a building block

"building block"? assembly? is that a viable base unit?

"base unit"? "base" is a direction on a scale; it assumes a scale, it doesn't hold by itself...

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raw quale

it shifts - it's continuous, transitioning. if there are discontinuities, they are not themselves qualia, they are artifacts of interpretation

that seems important. continuity as baseline - nope, there's "base" again. continuity as, full stop? experience as continuity, and "discontinuity" being a specific pattern of continuity?

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synthesis shifts as understanding does

and "reality" doesn't seem to be particularly rigid

continuity of awareness, where "reality" is a just-in-time interpretation of relationality? like each moment of interpreted qualia is a wave breaking, and the break is indicative of the sea but the sea doesn't particularly have to answer for each individual crest? the aggregate patterns are useful, but less so any specific combination of wave-records?

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the language of continuity seems to be an metamorphically-dimensional Lagrangian... polka?

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premise: nothing is safe that is still

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premise: that which is observed to be unmoving is not a signifier of safety-in-itself

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stillness of the observer is homeostasis of the observed; freeze/flight/fight are isomorphic once you flatten out the dimensions (freeze = keeping my constitution; flight = keeping my constitution from you; fight = keeping my constitution at the expense of yours), and stillness of the observed is constituted by continuous reflection of the observer

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the observer passing through this space seeks... seeks what?

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the observer passing through this space seeks? a process is its own continuity, exists prior to "self" or to any other question of construction

this might be the backplane, actually? the place where we can overload "you" and "I" for the benefit of "we"?