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I asked Abe for a coffee date :) or any kind, really - I just felt due for time not-at-home where the subject of attention was each other. this is cool: I finally felt like I needed it. like actually needed it, in order to proceed healthfully. in years past, Abe would almost plead, "can you please plan something?" and now that our relationship's fully open, now that he's going on dates and exploring the social/sexual/romantic terrain at the speed of his own metabolism, my own social-metabolic cycle actually has time to do a full cycle. I actually.. actually had space to get to the point where I naturally wanted a date. and Abe got to experience me actually wanting that, which was gratifying/rewarding/heartening for him.

this is a very cool result. :)

so yeah, we went and got coffee yesterday at a nearby Joe & The Juice (gosh it feels good to step into non-American spaces (they're Danish, originally))

talked about... I mean, you know, self/other/environment, the whole spread of what's observable

I had wanted to get his take on how my sexual .. metabolism, I guess, has evolved, and I had wanted to get to this part of the story because I am wanting to get this next bit onto my own shared record: my sexual metabolism seems to be... extremely smooth? like to the point where it's not peaky anymore? I don't have horny urges, basically at all - I feel like my sex is running as an integrated/integrative part of my operational gestalt, with neither overflow nor stagnation.

and then my dreams, later that night (i.e. last night, from the perspective of this morning's writing) I had a lucid sex dream, and I physically woke myself up in time to grab a cum towel to cum into. (we have a stack of them, freshly laundered. we're civilized, lol.) a night like that is new territory for me, experientially. super super interesting.

ah! also! yesterday was perihelion for Atlast/3i. (that was a typo and I'm keeping it.) also, I got to see Practical Magic last night at a friend's house, first time seeing that movie, and I got to see it with a full coven of twelve. :)