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so: I can experience the experience of direct apperception of the sun visually without also experiencing the direct apperception of damage. (I am not speaking metaphorically, and the asymmetric layers of experiential indirection are intentional. my phrasing here is precise, and is not equivalent to "I can look at the sun". it is especially not equivalent to "you can look at the sun".)

and I can do that whole same thing with the machinery of meaning itself: I can navigate the relationship between thought-as-process and thought-itself without falling down the well. (I'm already in the well, I just have built a home at a particular depth.)

my experience with both of these things, the sun and recursive thought, feeeeeeeeel like observation of the thing-in-itself without collapsing the wave function onto myself-as-observer.

it might be because my "self" is something I do not attend? like it's ... to me it's a collection of emergent phenomena that always just seem to be immediately and recognizably at hand? but I don't maintain them - I just ... find out who I am today along with everybody else

there's no eigenvalue of "self" for me to observe. or .. to inhabit? I am not identified with anything that could be subject to eigenstate? ('course now we gotta talk about what "identified" means...)

I choose my observation-path (I mean, maybe? maybe it's like ... I experience quantum coherence like gravitational attraction and I just go with/for it), and I find out what my environment (which includes my body, and my .. my entire "self", I guess) happens to look like as I navigate

I know that I will be here regardless of what else is apparent

I don't know what "I" means, but such knowledge appears to be optional

that might be it?

≡Isaac, eigensalt (you've heard of a crypto salt? this goes the other way. "you've been assigned an irrational coordinate-stream" (see: the mirror hall); I am mine.)