# 20250701

I feel... halfway between a dandelion fully in the fluff stage, and a hot air balloon - in that I feel filled but not taut, soft but not still. all while being fully in the sun. :) is how I feel

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I noticed today that the cage looks different now

in high school I saw, in my mind's eye, "a cage of my own design", and me locked inside it, the keys just out of reach (this came up in [20250425](https://www.isaacbowen.com/2025/04/25))

I noticed today that what looked like a cage now looks a holding, like I asked my friends to hold me tight while I changed

the cage is made out of the same stuff as me

maybe I [grew out](https://www.isaacbowen.com/2025/07/01/dream-logic) of it?

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four of discs

nine of cups

eight of swords

page of cups

ace of swords (me)

knight of swords

the hanged woman