gym

gym notes today, scratchpad

being positioned right in front of that other person’s line of sight has my system a lil off center, working with it

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context, which I’m externalizing to help my own system, and which I’m sharing in case it’s useful for you: there being only one other person in the gym, the possibility-space right in their line of sight is like a grand canyon compared to the rest of the gym. me starting right in front of them felt like doing my first rep on the edge of a cliff; my system is rattled

am learning that I def want to bring my headphones with me (consciously didn’t today, experimentally; the experiment yielded data lol)

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recognizing that I’m maybe more delicate rn, jet lag and transitions and stuff

15 left:

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other factors include abe actively wanting my input on the future of our housing, also a former fuck buddy is suddenly here at 10 for coffee, also a boat tour this morning, also I wrote a whole synthesis of consciousness-as-technology this morning

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keeping a live diary like this seems to be working really well for me though

5 left

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consciousness-ness means anyone can move in and improve things. it’ll resist things getting worse.

for later: I never assume anyone has seen anything (edit: this was regarding you letting me know in person that you’d seen a notification but hadn’t read the message. all good. I externalize stuff for reference, not as a replacement for syncing up.)