20250427

Observation: today's "awareness is" thing happened a year after 20240427, and 20250425 (with specific focus on the "don't look back" piece therein) happened a year after 20240425.

It feeeeeeels like I'm coming back around on the stuff I channeled last year, but this time it's an integration pass? Like it's not just transparent relay of information, it's... me, this time? Granted, the "don't look back" piece was half in the universal voice and half in the Isaac voice, but still, it came up as a result of what felt like my own process, as opposed to a more generic yielding to whatever knowing I felt nearby. Feels different.

The tea-stained tarot draw a couple days ago described this. The reversed hermit in particular elicits something strong in me.

feel accidentally abandoned by the group

nobody’s fault

I wanna try this again sometime as a group, with a group plan

^ That was me, texting Abe, after I left the club in tears of autistic overwhelm. On a patio the next afternoon, I asked my pals to collaborate, to find a version of Isaac+club that feels good, not just survivable.