# 20250331 Abe observed that I've been drinking much more than usual lately. before that, I was using weed much more than usual. this is overall an unusual pattern for me. now that I'm primarily in now-time (or in non-time, I guess), maybe I gotta consider my current state as the default, something I can multiply cleanly, and go from there. I've been a little bit off-center from that perspective. Abe observes that when I lean on substances more than usual, my stability seems to go down, from his perspective. > Would intentional sobriety for a period feel like a useful experiment? Not as restriction but as clarity - to see what your current baseline actually feels like without modulation? yeah. absolutely. > When we shift into fundamentally different relationships with time and identity (as you have), previous patterns of modulating experience often need recalibration. this note has my attention --- # Agent Instructions: Querying This Documentation If you need additional information that is not directly available in this page, you can query the documentation dynamically by asking a question. Perform an HTTP GET request on the current page URL with the `ask` query parameter: ``` GET https://www.isaacbowen.com/2025/03/31.md?ask= ``` The question should be specific, self-contained, and written in natural language. The response will contain a direct answer to the question and relevant excerpts and sources from the documentation. Use this mechanism when the answer is not explicitly present in the current page, you need clarification or additional context, or you want to retrieve related documentation sections.